Chenai Trip.

So I came to chennai on the morning of 25 December with the train running 20 mts late and we reached home at 10 in the morning.we felt that it would be better to take a taxi instead of haggling with the rowdy chennai auto walas. its the same anyway with a hole of 250 early in the morning.
There is some relief in being with Hd alone far from every ones eyes and we getting the privacy we need ;). Ask me and i would say that all married couples should be left alone in the first year and if they lucky then they might be getting the time needed for everything.
Hd was running late to work so had to rush up in a hurry. The house was in a big mess and needed 3 hours of cleaning , with washing the dishes, clothes, sweeping the house , cleaning bathrooms . I don't know if white flooring is a boon or curse as we can see the smallest hair so clearly that one can't rest in peace until it is cleared .I almost was tired and expected to get the much needed sleep after almost no sleep in the side upper berth but no luck . There was a time when train journeys were much awaited and fun to take , but after the the side middle berths in trains it has kind of become like a cubby hole where 9 people are forced to sit and look at each other faces , even though you avoid it a 100 times . I had a stupid women's era in hand and didn't know whether to call the stories written in them as stories , they stop so abruptly . and for the first time i thought i missed some thing and checked if the story has been continued some where but no. I stood in the shop for 15 mts on deciding to buy some book for the journey but i just could not decide on any thing and came back sending mom to get some thing and she bought Women's era. :) She is still in the era when Womens era was a good book , and i remember the time when we as kids went to Bellary for a visit to some aunts place , mom painfully copied all the recipes from the magazine into a book in neat hand writing . She till refers to that book for doing aloo capsicum curry , a specialty of hers .

After the dinner when i got into the upper side berth there was no place to lift the water bottle and drink leave alone sit for some time. I some times think laloo with his entire family should be made to travel in side upper berths and made to feel the pain and mind you it does not come cheap , its a good 500 rs .

I think i wll never like chennai , tried truly to find out one good point but found actually none . The attitude of the people or rather say recruiters is really appaling .How do you expect some one to work for quite a less amount for what they are getting already ? and why the talk about 'what would happen if you are layed off from the current company ? If he was not an old man , god swearing i would have really blasted him right there ? You guys want the work , and then you want the 'Quality work' , and then you want new products idea from us and you miserly idiots dont care for the employee right? Ok sir we will see the end of this all!!! ..and more than all this i have been kind of used to luxurious life style before marriage .Taking a cab from one place to another , and using the car when going with the family , ..and now finally i told hd that i cannot sit on the back of the bike in the chennai traffic. the day we tried to go out , we were stuck in some rally by communist party and the way the cab fellow honked at us was enough to wake the dead up.My temp increased by another 5 degrees. and the house we have taken is quite faar from the main road and even to get medicines we need to go a 15 mts drive on a muddy road ..and the rent for the flat , even though we are staying so away from main road is 8,000. .comparing the same to hyd , the flat rent is 8000 in the center of the city , where you have to just walk a furlong to reach a medical shop.Tried to check for a flat near egmore and the rent amt sent us into a heart attack mode--it was a whooping 28000..:/.

All the travelling , sleeping on uneven bed , change in the water , climate has taken a toll on me and 2 days have been spent in dragging myself from the kitchen to the the painful bed.It has left me exhausted ..so went to the doctor finally today and he advised me to take an injection for speed recovery .its like that dialogue from movie ' maine injection dediya hain, ab saab kuch theek hojayega'..anyways ..taking the bus again at 8 today..

The week end saw me going to a bridal function of one of the second cousins of Hd.The relationship even to Hd was so distant that it was very hard to connect them to him.The Bride was Hd' s grandmother's (senior MIL's) seventh brother's third daughter.Senior MIL's family was interesting and so confusing that it was hard to know who -was-who.She has 7 sisters and 6 brothers or could be reverse 7 brothers and 6 sisters, she being the oldest of them all and in a grand age of 83 years and the surprising fact was none of the sisters came for our marriage , which disappointed her a lot.She wanted to see them all once in this marriage and so there we were three ladies one in her 80+ another in her 50 +,me the last and the FIL.

Finally I got a chance to wear the crape pink saree which was bought some 4 years back when one of my cousins was getting married and though it was not actually my style to wear a pearl set and would have preferred any gold set other wise , MIL asked saying that it would look good and also gave pearl bangles.:/....not my style at all..but well.My mom if she had seen me would give a happy laugh , that i am pearl bangles (for some one who would not wear bangles at all ).Some how pearls kind of give a corporate dinner look and they better suit when you are going to a formal dinner some where.
On reaching there one thing which really stuck me was that all Senior MIL's family almost looked alike . All were tall , had loud voices , long faces , all the ladies had fair skin , all were old , had problems with their back and legs ,even in getting fat they were maintaining uniformity .but Senior MIL was the tallest of them all for sure .She stands 5 8 i guess.one thing i always wondered was from where did Hd get his long face since both MIL and FIL had narrow faces only , The seeds lied here .

Prude Gossip.

It doesn't matter the way they put some things across..whether its gentle or rude or coveted or prudish or ..any types..the people around can send messages in aa 1000 ways and if it none of their business then they can be all the more interested in the same . the first few months of a marriage can be the toughest in any one life..and I can slap-a-spit on all who picture the few months as rosy , cozy and oooh so romantic. well it can be true if there is no ..i mean absolutely no-interference from the in laws.But people have noses to poke around and most of all at places where they can generate a good gossip . And God help us on the day when you hear that gossip in a direct question. I mean they can put it so innocently before us , that you can gape at it for some time and depends on your smartness of how quickly you can react back. Hd's cousin came to india today and when talking on a friendly note asked me simply : Oh i thought you were calling from your mom's place ..well i am surprised you are at my brothers place.So this is what the MIL senior talks on my back.


..the girl never stays her..she is always running around to her mom place ..she does not do any work at home ..and she is so silent..' i guess it might be running like this.
I tell you what there can be no place on this earth where you can be treated like a princess except at home and that's a fact.Well to speak plainly i was stupid and dumb that icoul dnot react to thast statement quickly ..i might have retorted back saying something sweet and sharp..but well gaping at things is what i am doing right now...but wait till i get a second chance you dumb idiot ..i can also show how words can cut through.!

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I wonder which stage is the worst one..being in a company and wondering when be get sacked for lack of projects or having no job at all? :P

When i read my poor blog i some how don't like it .Not because i have become a married aunty now but because i don't know why i lost that 'ZZZing' thing in this blogging stuff.For one thing i stopped enjoying little things in life.I don't know why.Before marriage ..hmm..dont know how to put it but there was some thing which i find suddenly missing now.What exactly is it..I try to think and cannot place my finger on it now.Humour? Anticipation?? what is it exactly ?I know every persons story is different and i married neither for money nor for status.I married just because i thought Hd was a decent guy .Decent and pleasing.Well behaved.No-highfunda-attitude.and all simple things.No quick change of tempers .No i-know-u-have-to-listen-to-me.
All neat things..but all these things are just like ..mirror copies of my attitude.And some where in all theses travellings, sitting at the back of the bike, roaming and more roaming , right from day one of married life, the turned down offers of jobs in chennai , my previous companies issue with me, the comparisons with other people, the little health issues, stress at the work place form no project , god i think i have never been stressed so much ..the inability to quit the job ..God ! are there enough issues to think of. Well may a few more will add on.

..And the funniest thing is i have subscribed to 55666 from my mobile to get me some gyan on romance which send messages like 'Love is a gift from one's innersoul to another so that both can be whole' and i keep wondering ..when am i going to understand the real meaning of it all?

I wish I was.
I wish I was one of those people that I see in company with a smile on their lips and laughter in their eyes. Who don’t have to worry about many things at one time. Who don’t know what is actually trouble in their lives. For them life is just one passing flow from one destination to another without a break from college to a work place. Who had nothing to trouble their little souls about, who had nothing to think in the wake of night about what to do tomorrow since their nothing to do..who never had to plan their career because it has been planned for them..who had nothing much to get depressed about since u know everything has been set.

Who don’t have to worry that the clock already shows 8 o clock and cannot spend a minute more in bed.Who don’t have to worry coming out of the bath room that it is already 8 45 and they don’t have to enter sheepishly before the in-laws in the kitchen ..who don’t have to have one ounce , thread of remorse in them that they are not good enough in some things..who don’t have to listen to perfect stories of daughter inlaws..who don’t have to leave their husband in some other city ..who don’t have to talk and explain other people that they could not leave the current job as there is a recession going on around with no signs of going up in future ..who don’t have to cry some sad story to other company HR about what happened in the previous company..who don’t have to whist and look at all things gone wrong and all the missed chances in life..abbbbaaahhh..

I wish I was not like this.

You can't RUB some things

The other day we were at a religious gathering abt Sai baba. To be precise we were not part of the religious discourse but made it on time for the lunch ,lieing to every one that the bike got punctured ..(BAD) .After the lunch Hd slept straight for 2 hours living me alone in the strangers house listening to their talk abt their families and me giving all plastic smiles abt being interested. To be frank i am not the type who can listen to such talk for long and i was getting increasingly tired after one hour . Tried to wake Hd by making small sounds unsuccessfully.
All the people there had to talk abt BABA and his miracles in making things work out. I wondered if i will also turn like that when i get old , unable to sort out things , getting more dependent on the philosophies of living.Yes ladies and gentle men , i do believe in God and saibaba. But i am just not used to talking abt religion much , and to be frank i feel the baba culture is taking people away from the old ways of praying and living.
Yes it is true , our family does not pray daily to sai baba and to be frank we never had a calender of saibaba and we never depended in any small baba's for deciphering messages , trying to be baba's them selves.God is a force for me and even if you bang your head a 1000 times , what is supposed to happen will happen , nothing can avert it.
After crossing the clan after marriage , i can say one thing . VV race is the mildest and calmest race in the world.We don't rub our bhakthi in what ever we believe in so much as other clans ... and that's a fact .

She is Living..?

She is the stubborn daughter in law.She does not heed to any one and the most irking thing about her is her boldness and silence.It kind of bugs you to have her always hover around the place and almost do nothing .Well almost nothing.To be clear she is always around the place , moving form this place and that.But she is not the type who can yell at everything, well may be she can but she might not .She nods her head at all the repeatedly told facts abt the house hold , but you can see by her face she is not excited.She just exists but is not completely living.

It's not that she has any problem being there , she smiles and laughs but her empty eyes some times give away some things . She iSSS happy , wears the most eye-turning sarees , everything looks perfect , but you can say by her look that she is existing but not exactly living.

She wants to turn her head and ask her partner , why am I not living? But well she can skip it to ask at some other point.For the time being she can exist without living.

All bloggers have some kind of angst and passion in them for them to blog more.What happens when you loose that passion? I mean all these years there was a small passion, hope that ultimately i will be passionate about the marriage stuff or work .But suddenly there is a deep surge or slump like the market around me .I am just not passionate or i lost the little shreds of passion which was living in me , all the same.


I just go about things like they have always been there. There is no surprise element there .I mean i got married just a few months back in the grandest possible way!! I mean it was the grandest affair in the recent times and surprised one too many people around us . I never enjoyed the after math of the thing as i was in my in laws house .The pictures spoke a lot , but some where deep down a slump has formed and the little things which were supposed to give me happiness are drowned in that slump.

A thin rod.

We know that we are standing at the edge of a thin rod..hanging on a broken rod...wondering when the thin rod will slide over the broken rod and becomes a broken rod.....

......and when the thin rod breaks as it had to break we blame the rod maker for placing it on the broken rod. :P

August-2008

The month of August from which i actually have not totally come out is dedicated to .....

( ..though its a bit late thing to do now..)

Thanks!

The other day ..oh well just today ..i was in the cafet and was wondering at the hep crowd around and commented on the same..for which my colleague commented that people in D are a lot more relaxed than in other companies..well..it sounds kind of true to me now after one year in the company ..i am more relaxed than i was one year in other companies ..Well this small line is for you Deloitte - my luck mascot - Thanks for every thing.

Where ..what ..

I am back..back..back....This is my new status in gtalk ..being back to work after a looong period of one month..from my longest leave ....back to B4F-045....taking a different cab to to work now its D9 instead of D6 ...and just like the reversal of the numbers ..things every where are also reversed..Many of the people are glad to see me back ..and they have all been to the wedding ..and saw the wedding through the night..Thank you guys ..from the dias i felt as i knew only you people well in the crowd...:)
So much has happened that i don't know from where to start writing....Actually i am clues less and thread less of the events and am i am now like a hen picking things here and there ..trying to see where all this has started , where am i now ..what is next..where..what ...when

I just happened to read my own posts in the 'letters of thought' blog and man i am not a bad writer at all. I was thinking was I who has written all this? Wooow.

The ring scare

Morning to day i got the scare , when i realized the ring on my fore finger was not there. I have been wearing it for now almost 3 years and am attached a lot. I ransacked the bed, hall, balcony the places i have been yesterday night after coming at 10 15 PM . No sign of it.
It got a bit loose and I have been planning to tie a thread to it one of these days . I racked my brain but could not remember when i last saw it, only remembering the thing that i saw it in the rest room slipping from my finger and i pushing back , thinking that the aerobics have made even my fingers slim : ) .Well that was the last thought that came by .

Losing hope that i would find again , i was trying to relate whether it was a bad omen to loose a gold ring on a Friday . :) and whether it was the end of a particular period of time to come...so many thoughts at one time all running toward gloom.

Came to work and poured the ring trouble to a girl in rest room and she wisely told 'If it is yours it will be back' . Wow ! I had this last hope of finding the ring in the laptop bag only the last last small hope ..

..and there it was shining and hiding at the corner of the bag..and i took a deep breath .thanks .

Will I ..?

Will i be blogging about inlaws, SIL's , marriage problems , dissapointments in future?

What do you call a day when you know heart of hearts , that the day has come for you to be released from the project , because you applied leave almost a month later. I hate project releases but well they are just the part of the game , and you have to face them and the period on bench , even thought its nice to say 'Aaah i am on bench ' deep down there is as always this fear ..So there is no project in hand..hmmmm...life and its situations ..you want to buy it or not things will not stop .

Philosophy

An arranged marriage is like the conspiracy of the universe in making some thing happen without any hindrance so that one day when we have grey hairs on the head , we can sign...and say ..it was our fortune to happen the way it has happened..things could have been worse..

This seems to be the only philosophy that runs life.

Jiyo mere laal!

I don't know when i started to blog but it has been kind of one year now.! Looks like my first post in this one was exactly a year back : ) with the number of hits of 666!! is it a bad omen?? I hope it turns lucky for me and looong live my blog
... Jiyo mere laal, mera kanha ..
....jug jug jiyo ...!!!

A morning Poem.

Came to work just a wee bit late..
Found an outlook with no mails..

Tried to read my favourite blogs..
Well they seems to have run out of ideas..

So I think what is in store for today..
Then I wonder what is up in there..

So I took a look at the gtalk
found the same old faces..

Who have nothing to talk
Nothing to say ..

Only a pair of green dots..
..
The only solace is to call a friend.
Who seems to be at the other end somewhere..

So what is there in store today?

Daily Rambles.

Misadventures : -

1.I had this problem with SAP logon pad for a long time , it would give me a pop up box when ever i try to connect to the server with 'tracelevel 2 message' and i found it very irritating.After changing to Vista it kind of disappeared and after some updates on the laptop it reappeared again.I got again irritated and asked some very intelligent guys around me to check if they also go it after message, and got a very Innocent 'no' from them. I like a super smart girl immediately call the ITS people and raise a ticket ..carry the laptop tot he staging room to find him just do a right click and remove a check box....and i seeing with a gaping mouth ..Is that all...i said 'this is basic' I immediately wanted to lie saying i am new to SAP but some where conscience stopped me and i came back with a sore face. Well that's for my knowledge of SAP for almost now 3 years ..

2.Life has simple rules you know, very simple.Whatever be the scenario , if some one is trying to avoid your company , does not miss you at any level , keep away from them.But no the stubborn Gemini that i am will go to any level to keep in touch with unwanted people and then rethink about the whole thing and repent on some of the actions.This is a continuous process and 'how hard a lesson i learn' i will be relearning it all the time.God bless me.

3.Lack of work in Deloitte can kill a person , part of my blog is a product of it , but ofcourse the first reason was the need to write some where.

4.Sometimes loneliness helps in sorting some things.some times it muddles the already existing things.

5.Today i went with a cab friend to Barista , saw another cab friend there and after a mango smoothie had some fresh air .The talk of the evening was of course Impact day , the unexpected post ponement and again now on the coming Saturday , well it turned to another mess.Saturday ..huh..i am not sure how enthusiastic will people be..I am slightly excited but again not very sure at all , i am kind if excited about the new Impact day shirt to be very precise ..it should have been done last Friday itself. well..

Gift to xx.

Will a time come when i leave a company , some one will give me a farewell gift or token for the work done or just for the sake of farewell?
I heard many times people showing small pieces as team gift or a present from old company ..uhhu..uhuu :( ( i want one) !! I will be leaving deloitte soon.

Today a sombre looking maintenance boy came around and gave a small chit which said 'today XXXXXX' , the principal is leaving to US , so please sign on this as a partake gift..and a big bat was produced from his side to sign on it ..with a pink sketch pen..Hmm good idea..he seems to be a cricket fan.

Two giggling girls and a movie

Yesterday madhu dropped by for a chat as we could not make it on saturday .
Could not help think that no matter what , nothing can kill a romance in a person , or the desire to love and keep falling in love all the time .
We started to see some clipping of Jodhaa akbar , and started to giggle at the 'romantic ' moments of the movie like two 16years old's..When like akbar see jodhaa for the first time or the way his eyes keep looking when she is around..It was enough for us to giggle like two teenage girls ..and i could not help think about the time when madhu bought the DVD 'Pyar ke dus rules ' and we laughed , rolled , and did all kind of things , enjoying the movie..not only we then aunty also joined us in our roll-over-giggle-laughter thing.
I some times think the combination of a taurus and gemini is such a good combi , the romance of one feeding the imagination of the other .:-) Always happy to have you around madhu. :)

What is it like to work for the 'Best Employer' of the world :
1.Work is Good here and you are occupied most of the time , though i should say its a bit too hectic for spme days as people crave here for Quality and standards .
2.People here are the most energetic ones , i mean you can actually feel once you start working here , the language is all ' Get things done' and keep the ship floating with a bright green-blue flag ( Deloitte's colors ).
3.Some of the facilities are the best , the transport , oppurtunities to work onsite , kind of work in general as they deal only with implementation projects are too good. You wont find the kind of clients you find here at any other place...I can't mention them here as you see i keep the company's information confidential :)
4. The whole talk of the management is always about 'Ethics' and 'People' .Deloitte would never be the way it is working without having the kind of people who work for them .
5.I do the technical work in SAP and as things go about , we are a bit sober .But if you just take a walk around the place , and venture into other blocks you will find people so hep and happening , people more than anything have the ability to dress for work more appropriately and insync with the fashion of the day , that I felt many a times to go about and ask them 'where did you get this peice, but again they are HR people and show the attitiude.
6.There are many 'phirangis' who work here as this is officially an American company working in asia , and i cannot help wondering at the way they keep a smile attached to their faces all round the day , when ever you look at them , it's kind of attched to their faces and again they dont show any signs of tired ness no matter , if they 'party or work ' , atleast i cannot make it .
..and i also think about their ability to supress natural reactions into a mechanized process of talking and smiling .It s always amusing to hear them as thay talk in a rhythmic fashion like a song ..and all the meeting end with a 'thanks for all the wonderful work you are doing for us'!!!
Will be contd..

A good feeling

Today i got the first official laptop which i have been given to work upon , it gives the daily work that i do a new look.
When you are about to leave some thing dear to your heart it senses that omen and tries to give you more ..this is similar to that , my fate knows better that i am going to leave the whole set up and it is trying to give me more at the end , so that i can feel deprived more when i am gone from here ..That i show things work for ...
On the lighter note , the laptop features have slowed down my work with its new features and deloitte net has its mind today and is terribly slow .
It s one of those days when 'fine' working form is changed by me thinking it to be some other object and stand like a culprit before the tester when the form shows the values at the wrong places .Pooh..!..And added to this would be the fact servers are slow ..why cant life be like , if work is not there we can go home and rest .
Today in the morning , every one was at home , mom bunked work as she was feeling tired, dad is here , bro also at home , so why am i going to work like an eneergized person..i thought of going back from my cab poin t, but well whats the point in getting all ready and then going back to home..so here i am.

But then i would have missed the new laptop :) feel good factor ..;) hey i am happy , i am the first in my group to handle this one .
..Small song for my laptop.
hayya hayya hoo..:D
I love the new laptop..
hayya hayya hoo..
i want to play with laptop..
hayya hayya hoo..
Kb has gone crazy with laptop..:D

Time Changes Everything.

There was an article in paper which showed the face of a important diety is getting changed with time .and the caption of the article says 'Even God changes with time' , and for one sec that striked such a 'So very true' chord inside me.Everything changes with time including the opinion we have on our own people , the kind of relation we share with god , the impression we have on life..and so many things. Well that's for a passing thought.
This week end saw me seeing two movies 'a Chinese movie which was so touching that my bro thought i was going into a 'crying jag' mood and old classic movies .The Chinese movie was about a Police officer who investigates a case in which people are cruelly killed in strange fashion and most of them appear to be like they have killed them selves without a clue . And on investigating they come across a religious group which uses the concept of 'immortality by becoming gravely ill ' and in the process of finding the religious group the officer realizes that life is such a short span of time , and how he had neglected his own family life and loved ones for work , how he had ignored the lives of his fellow officers killed while investigating numerous cases ..and when he actually comes across the place where the group works from it happens to be a Central building in the middle of the city ' wherein a temple had been built inside with a group of serious monks ..who actually manage to kill all the police officers who come inside for investigation except the officer ..and on digging the whole place later they find the body of a17 year old girl who is inside the floor and the skin on her belly has been removed ..but she is not dead yet..So they rush her and save ..
But one day she just disappears from the hospital and comes inside the dream of the officer and tells him that she is the one who has killed all the people for reaching immortality ..this is the most unexpected shocking part of the movie .She threatens to kill the daughter of the officer in his dream and kills the fellow officer who kind of becomes a good friend for the officer and makes him swallow poison with traces of it on his hand ..
The girl has double vision in the sense that she has two pupils in her eyes and that is an indication that she is the one doing all the things as per the prophecy..
And as the story goes on he shoots the girl at the end and dies also by inhaling a lot of mold air inside that temple ..
There is some thing very sad about the way the police officer dies and his wife refuses to believe the fact and shouts 'how can you leave without telling me ' and at that moment the dead body of the officer sheds tears
..I think the movie has to be seen to feel it actually ..the Chinese music at the back ground does some kind of magic in the movie..and the tabulate at the end tells ' Sorrow in the world is due to love , if you over come it there is no sorrow or attachment '......The END : D
After thought : people who read this post will definitely wonder what happened to KB !! A movie review can be written so cluelessly ......
Another movie Review : Well I wil do it tomm, guess had enought for today!

Hi

An enthusiastic 'Hi' from the least expected people tells that you have dressed well for the day!!

OMG!!!!!

This is one of the reply's i had in my telugu matrimony account ...

hai KB my mummy called u yesterday u r mother responded said no to my matrimony i felt disapointed u r 27 i m 31 4 yrs difference ur regd 300000 mine is 850000 differece is 500000 u r such old profile urs is hastha mine is rohini as per astrolegers predeiction is theywill interweave nicely so please accept no i m on ias prelims definately i 'll be a topper namely i m ticket collector just to work means work thatoo central job i once spoke to u r bro mahesh also nice guy i m intrested so pl accept no make me smile

That guy has written a description of the person whom he wants and likes tobe in below manner : Only telugu speaking person can enjoy this one :

PATCHANI PASIMI-MARI LAVU MARI SANNAM KAKUNDA SUMARU GA UNDI PALIPOINA MUKHAM KAKUNDA KALLAJODU LEKUNDA SPRURADRUPAM AYYI UNDALI! I DONT CARE IF LITERATE OR ILLETERATE RICH OR POOR DOWRYFUL OR DOWRYLESS AS WE ARE SO RICH BUT SHOULD BE AN ASTONISHING BEAUTY AS DEFINED ABOVE....

My aim is not to make fun of the guy but he has been kind of stalking the whole household with his calls ..

The cat is out

Finally it happened , last Sunday ...the dream of my father , mother and bro..I got engaged in the morning hours of 27 April . Now i carry a ring on my right hand finger which thank god is weightless and does not remind me of its existance. So finally its over and done ..the marriage is scheduled in the coming next months and I will be moving to Chennai leaving Deloitte and sweet Hyd ..There is still some time for it. Well I am done with my part.Things are taking their own course now and people at home are pretty excited about the whole thing. I am slowly leaking the news to friends, and one who reads this blog i know will be quite angry with me for not telling but to tell the truth i my self took some time in digesting and adjusting to the idea.Well Its finally done now.
I am still not very close to the 'guy' , but definitely he is the one who is more happy and shows it on his lit up face. Lucky one i should say , who just met one girl , got the best ! ;) and took the opportunity without losing time .Wow! what a stroke of luck . Frankly speaking i was not for it ..even now when i am speaking to him its not like i am marrying some one i know , some one i can relate with easily like i have done in past ..its an effort to smile , which shows pretty well in the pics !!! (and people politely suggesting me to smile more ) ..
My source of smile comes from the lit up faces of my family , aunts (who liked the 'guy' more than me ) , the proud look when they had on their faces when i was standing on the dias of the hall , from the lit up face of my dear friend , from the happiness of the fact that the 'guy' and me look good , what ever be the other things ...
The whole thing was worth one thing , my people and the way they were just a step behind ' for if i needed any thing '..my akka was fixing my armlet ..my aunt was worried that the Saree was too heavy , but again proud that i was looking good in that color ..my relatives musing over the 'vaddanam' which me and mom painfully selected some time back ..that also came after a lot of fighting with dad ..he wanted some thing , we wanted some thing ..finally he gave up and we won ..and now he is happy that it looks so well .
So today morning when i saw for the first time my snaps , i felt a strange sense of wonder of 'Is it me there ?'

I am so frustrated with myself , i wish i could leave myself some where and return after some time.

The best actor .!

I can be given this award in the Oscars.!
I have made it i mean the decision and it seems i am going to marry one guy after 3 months .. before that there will be an engagement the next Sunday . So yesterday me with my cousins and people have hunted for a hall and got it fixed for the coming Sunday ..it seems it is a good day and the total city is booked ... how quickly things change.. To speak the truth i don't know what is happening and go abt things in a silent manner . I act as if it is a matter of fact and have made the choice ....I am not able to some how see the happy faces around me ..i mean i get angry ..what is there to get so excited abt the whole thing ..
I am here ..trying to digest the fact that i should be leaving a good job and search some where ..the company whom people are normally dying to get into i will be just throwing away ..
Life is just a silly struggle and it seems such a waste of energies to plan so much for it.dont do any planning , its a waste.

I am getting engaged the next Sunday ..we will be in a hotel or some place and the guy will put a ring on my finger ..it seems so..so finally the gods have bestowed on my fate a guy whom i am to spend the rest of my life with..

Its purely a compromise on my part and has nothing to do with likes , wishes , dislikes my idea of whom to marry ..It has come . I have said yes because i am tired of running this race and want to settle down..There is nothing very impressive in the whole thing..matter of convenience for that guy and me..that's all..i think he has thought abt it in this fashion..this girl is there ..she gets decent income to support her selves..the house and family seems decent..The girl is acting positive..yes i was talking very positively since the night before i have taken an oath to myself ..that is not to meet another guy..So mechanically i have highlighted only the positive points..Yes i am a cheater and am cheating myself and him also..There's seems no go about the whole thing..

my father and relatives have gone to their place today to talk abt 'laanchanmulu'..hearing their discussion i thought i Will go mad..There seems to be high light only on one thing 'the girl gets good income ..the girl gets good income..I know how much hard it has been to survive in this position and how difficult will it be in getting a job again..only i know it!!!

Even any one who has known me in my high times will see me now ..will know the difference..i am so tired i think i can take sleeping pills and sleep un endingly..i only think of how to sleep and forget at the whole issue..but this is where i am wrong ..i am not supposed to act like his ..i am supposed to be positive abt the whole hing..but the guy has nothing int resting to tell me..i am the one who talk more here.and i am tired..i am only marrying because i my parents think i cant get a better match than this in future at the age of 27 ..so i have decided to put break to all the marching people into my home..and have said 'yes'. my father is highly excited abt the whole thing and is in cloud 9 from 2 days.. and as a person ..I am telling i just want to get of this house ..i am sick now ..with hoping that things can get better tomm and nothing happening ..

I always had some strength inside me to get out of an situation and survive it..but this time i have failed completely and badly..

If this is how people get married ..kudos to all the people who got married ..

dil hain ki manta nahin..

I not able to assimilate things now ...they have gone beyond control and are looming so large that its frightening the wits out of me..

all this time i thought that when i meet the right person i would know it clearly..

but what i planned has been swept with the tide and has left me gaping at things happening around..

No one should have such bad karma..

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With Love.

Dear mama,
Though i wished i had said all these things when you were there , i could not then , not knowing what was life all about..But today when so much has passed and i really feel like an old ancient person inside me..i some how remember how you were always there when i was much younger ..Today on mom's b'day when it slipped my mind like all years and especially now when my mind seems always preoccupied with sluggish froth from past ..I really cursed myself for not wishing it first though i knew ..it would be her last b'day with me in home still .. my immediate thoughts went to how you would send for every occasions cards.. without missing ..you are missed again here ..
Though my missing you is on selfish grounds , I wish you were there like you always were when i was in serious trouble..
Like the time when i was 11 class and a flower pot has bursted very near to hand creating a multi layered gash ..and i cried my heart out ..You could not see me crying like that and used some mantra so that the pain would be transferred to you ..i stopped crying and you became silent and said 'it'z burnign allright ..
Like the time when i was sitting silently knowing i would definitely flunk the exam next day ..u called from one of you r travels some where from north India and said ' I will see what i can do..' .......I passed in that with 31 marks .. !!
Like the way you always said i was a special person no matter what..
It was enough to have you around to feel that strength ..
Today when life is such a mess that i just cannot turn my head back and breath coolly i wish you were there to guide me ..
I hope you have found your abode which you were looking in your next life ..very near to God and living life again!
Remembering you forever ,
KB.

To Write some thing.

I always want to write
some thing like this ..
When the battle of the
dark side Vs bright side
keeps going .
Maybe i will loose it..
But the memoirs of the
battle will always be there ..
Just like the sweet nothings of a
lovers talk.
The lovers disappear .
only the letters remain ..
to be hidden some where
Popping into them
when they are thought to be forgotten.

Fun time!

Before the excitement wears off and before i forget to goad about it the whole time ..let me announce that i have come in papers and people can see me in the Sunday edition of eenadu , hyd in a small pic to the left ..and the reason for it winning the interior decoration of a living room in 'Home town' .Yupee ..the Prize money 54,000 ....but except the pic i don't have my name which is the sad part since i represented a friend who could not attend the competition ..and won for her .
The good part ..giving an interview for Gemini .
....The TV man saying 'madam u have spoken better than the anchor '!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
........The Marketing person of home town asking me whether i am an interior designer..
The sad part..I have to tell people 'i am here i am here.. :O
..the fun part ..Actually the experience. ;)

Cranky Thoughts

U know what people who just had a straight life have missed out a lot of fun in life ..and they have skipped the misadventures in everything. Just look like this ..U come out of college , there are no jobs around , females around you are either jumping into marriages because , well uhumm ..'who has seen the future' ? may be tomm getting this guy could also be difficult ..and well the guy is from US ..what else can happen better to me..and well the guy from college he seems to be too busy to notice me these days..actually what to do now ..well mom cried yesterday also ..and the guy who i have met that day seems to be ok , what if he has a already emerged bald head well he has the dollars ..if i dont jump now ..my future is doomed and that '@#@#' has already got a strappy partner beside her .. i am taking the jump taking ..taking..took :D ..So she takes the plunge and within two years realizes marriage has some good part but well it finishes off fast and what remains is cooking, washing , cleaning and blah..blah.. she looks around to find where exactly is hubby ..some meeting with client or a project kick off party and what is she doing exactly inside this? Clue less .

Now look like this .. She comes out of college , finds no jobs around , but well remembers that nothng has been smooth at any time ..so starts the struggle for the right job..but what is the right job ..more thinking ..After a stint in call center , plenty of courses , she realizes a good job is nothing but a comfortable job .Yes its as simple as that. Some where along the way starts the search for the right guy too ..but where to look exactly..this one ..arrey no ..may be this one..may be this is just not the right time ..or may be i should just take the plunge ..
That '#!#!' talked sweetly but what happened exactly ...what am i not looking good enough ..whats with my degree ..actual he has come from a worst college blade bull shit! oh..its just the contacts ..may be ..Well did not know him pretty well ..oh man the whole process is a big bull shit ..but atleast the other things are not worse ..so on it goes !!!! U see so many people and have so many misadventures that leading things normally becomes boring ..
how will you know how worse things can get
how idiotic people can get..
how to handle a situation when nothing seems to turn right?
how to write code ;) by copying from all over the world?
how to survive in this jungle of competition for every meagre thing ?
how to manage a jobless situtation?
how to tackle a dangerous manager .?
how to ..well everything!
This is how life should be and in the far off future you will really respect the hard won things . howz this one ?
--Cranky KB

Crocodile Fest

my seat at work has been changed from 47 to 45 ..its just a difference of 2 numbers ..but there is a hell lot of difference in the ambience..
Here i sit behind a moody manager whom the whole floor tries not to mess with..
If i could turn my head there atleast i could see other faces and hear their talk ..
If i turn my head here i face another wall..
this is just the begining of a 'crocodile festival' ;)

3 monkeys in 21 st Century.

So true !!!

It is ..

It is bad when there is no place to sleep when there are relatives around..
It is bad when the home u have grown feels so small and conjusted ..that u feel like running away..
It is very bad when people avoid ur place because there is no place to sleep in a comfort..
It is bad when a peaceful week end has to be spent in thinking such things ..and finding no alternative..
It is bad when the people who drop by are loud mouthed and too bold in their opinions..there is no place to run ..
It is bad when a person who is obsessed with cleanliness and order finds the whole home turned upside down..
It is bad when th week end flies by with you coming to work on a heavily raining sunday ..for training ..
It is bad when you miss the cab in such a weather ..
It is bad when the much hyped training is nothing but a 'firm activity' for the project manager..
It is bad when u are still in confusion..
It is still very bad when there seems no end to this endless thoughts ..

Last week..

......is dedicated to my trips in MMTS....
Some good views from the train ...

.......near the necklace road..

From the station ..

I want to badly , madly change my hair style, the look of the plait is getting boring to me and i want to change it to the open look . But for the hair to come to this length it has taken almost 6 months and i really dont want to cut it till july , just to see if it will come to the lenght i had in school ..Till then i have to wist fully see at all the new hair do's of people at work..

Gokarna!

I watched gokarna movie in the good old DD channel..It looked like the movie had been taken in 50 B.C and showed the original 'garbha gudi' of the place.Of all the three Lord shiva, Ganesha, and Bhadrakali Amma. ..and i was carried away for a moment to my own trip to the place..The one place where you can feel that shiva has placed his foot on this earth is gokarna..and the funniest part is the place being dominated by Ganesha temples everywhere..ganesha in the form of a small Brahmin's boy with a deep hollow spot on his head ..so deep that people actually put flowers and pour water in the shallowness ,standing erect and almost making you feel like he is a small boy from some world , who came to bless the world .

The shallowness comes from the knocks that ravana gives on his forehead when he puts down the atmalingam on the earth and thus was gokarnam formed and the atma lingam saved from going to Sri Lanka and sits now comfortably in the mountain wraps of western ghats...Ravana in his desperation to take the lingam from the sand there fails bitterly to root it from that place and twists the lingam so badly that some part of the lingam actually went into the earth and the opening took the shape of an cow's ear.(so it was called gokarna)..

I in my naiveness initially thought that the lingam would be in the shape of the cow's ear ..but the actual lingam which u get to touch now is just a small piece of the twisted lot and feels soft and warm..

..and the most amazing part of the whole place is the camp of foreigners who live around the beach there .it has one of the most beautiful beaches in India..with the water almost on the same level to the shore..and i heard that the last time after we left the place , the sea water had almost come till temple ..it wont be more than 3 km.s.

Smart!

Madam,
Ekkuva vatigurinchi try cheyaku..sarena…u have evry right to tell them for test data…oka mail pampu..with smile in ur face..plz..bye..

I dont know what to call this kind of love. Love which is actually forced to make a effect by repetitiveness ,by sending , resending , re-resending the same kind of stuff and then keep you under a obligation to be 'nice' all the time .Its very tricky business and a very smart way of approach as well.

What's in it?

A blog seems to be so much for so many people , but basically its an outlet for every one to vent out their fears , anguish , problems , happiness , quirky things , ideas, thoughts and what not ! but in the process of all this , the privacy of the person is at stake.I mean all the mummy bloggers with almost every tiny weeny detail of their children ( don't get me wrong , i like reading them too) , family life , along with pictures of them , in different moods ...Is it safe doing like this, i mean people could be there ( bad ones ) who might be envying them , though every one is not an evil, but still the negative energy might actually effect them( me all superstitious !) People could almost envy them for doing good in life..may be they should just write in blogs minus the pictures ..that could help , but in this busy world where there is no time for people to communicate per se except sit in front of the system for loong hours , this kind of communication gives a kind of 'i am not alone' good feeling, but again it should have limitations .
The bottom line is 'Everything should have a limit '. But who sets that?
It is making me think why i started to blog ..
It all started with my mails to Miss M .She felt i could write well , and loves my blog .This blog is i should say partly dedicated to her . So this started and all the imaginative situations , everything inside of me found a new vent and comfort in writing.
This blog is just a good read and nothing more. I cant say more to it. Actually i am dried up now and don't have anything to write or say, just passing time , pretending to work , and brooding within myself .

Work!

Let me write here itself :
1. Authorization groups are created in Se54.
2. Screens can be downloaded from one system and uploaded into another.There are options in utlities -> upload /download.

An unanswered prayer is like a mail caught by spam of a mail box ,never read or noticed ,lost some where in the bulk.

Peaceful sundays

A peaceful sunday morning would be to ( no guesses ! ) wake at your own sweet time ..
smile at the calmness of house , cuddle back into the warmness of the blanket .. without at any itinary for the day..

.....A peaceful sunday morning would be to hear the buzz of vacuum cleaner ..mom deciding on which deewan cover would it be for the week..and may be lend a hand...

A Peaceful sunday morning is ..no 'missed calls' on mobile and no reminders for the day...

...A peaceful sunday would be to brush the oiled hair ...apply some more 'mixtures ' added to the greasy oil..and a long weekly ablution ..scrubbing , brushing..and feeling later the silky hair and have another peaceful sleep. ;)

A peaceful sunday would be to make resolutions for the whole week ..and err..ahumm....think about them again the next sunday...

Problems & aftermaths

A problem is a problem..Or rather a situation which can be seen from so many sides .and people can react in many ways.

Talking like a manager : It's an opportunity to explore new and challenging roles ....the glass i s half full..empty ...blah blah..

Talking like a friend : Easy KB , they will get sorted out..

Talking like a mom : patiently listening to every small detail and asking me to go for a morning walk to begin to fresh up..:))))

Talking like Bro : Gone ! u have messed up again! what are u up to these days !!

My inner conscience : I don't want to think abt it..

Me : Groan , what to do now !

And when u jump the problem ..its emptiness and lightness from inside ........its pretty much of yawning and sleeping .

Talk to a PM !

My conversation here with a PM :

Hi , i am KB, my friends here told that there is work....( i did not complete here what i wanted to say )

PM : Who are your friends ..

KB : Krishn....( didn't complete )

PM : how do you know...

KB : they are from previous comp..( didnt complete )

PM : which company..

KB : '#!@$#@$' ...

PM : How long have you been there..

KB : 1.4...

PM: How do you know 'Jay..'..

KB : He was also from previous compa...

PM : Ok I will check out and see.

KB : ( blinking ) Ok thank you..

Traffic Jam!

Life looks like a traffic jam , a congested lane of thoughts , memories , wishes , friends , family ..and more so ever problems looking like all the wrong turned vehicles in a jam , until some vehicle moves or turns back and you move forward. U keep waiting for the thing to get cleared up , and the waiting takes you to thinking , talking , listening and later the memories are of the waiting , thinking and still later the memory will be of only talking/ writing about the memories .

Stress Management

I attended a session on Stress management as part of the Women initiative Programme. It was good actually , as i did not see time for even once during the two hours .

The main point the doctor stressed on was 'To see stress not as stress , but a situation or coincidental events , which are asking for more than you can handle at one time' So here is an oppurtunity for you to take advantage of the situation , look at it in from a third person's eye and make the best of it.

Wardrobe Story

"hey you look new here"
"you too."
"where are you from?'
"I was in the right side left corner "
"oh that explains, i was in the bottom rack"
"where are you from ?'
"calcutta and u?"
"Chennai" ..

I hope our luck takes a better turn. They sign looking at me.

P.S : This would be the conversation between two dresses in my ward robe ,when they meet after reshuffle , hoping that i would wear them more often this time unlike last year.

Tag

Tagged by Jaggu for this chained stuff .

Instructions:Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1) If you have a chance to change the career which you have chosen , what would it be ?( my question )
Teacher cum artist cum yoga instructer cum singer..cum..cum..

2) Name Three Most Valuable Assets?
My job, Friends , Family.

3) If you have the chance, what would you probably say to your beloved one?
where were u all the time?

4) If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you?
Madmomma, 2x3x7 , Ammani

5) Where is the place that you want to go the most?
Gokarna .

6) If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
Travel around the world ( plz not for work ) for pleasure, and i am sure it wont happen .

7) Till now, what is the moment that you regret the most?
So many are there.

8) What are you afraid to lose the most?
My family and job.

9) What would you do if you found a briefcase full of money?
I want to assume the money is in pounds(!!) please, buy a house i guess.

10) If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
I read some where , Eyes say it all, So i need not confess , my eyes would give it off.

11) List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
1.I don't know you , but i can sense that you are a good person.

2. --Ditto-

3.--Ditto--

12) What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
My blog has subtle reference to that every where.

13) Which type of person do you hate the most?

Misleading poeple , hypocrites.

14) What is your ambition?
Life is wonderful journey, wish to make the most of it .So my ambition you can say is to make life a memorable journey..( Sounds philosophical !!)

15) What is the thing that will make you think someone is a bad person?
People who cant think anything except themselves.

16) If you could do one thing different in life, what would it be?
Change some decisions i made in past.

17) Something which made u laugh today
Nothing much.

18) How do you deal with a friend who has wronged you ?
I wont say anything, if they were friends, they would come back themselves.

19) How important is love for you to get physically intimate with a person ?
They are interdependent, one thing is not possible without the other.

20) Name one favorite song of yours

*So many are there..
'Waqt ne kiya....

'Is mod se jaate hain..( all songs of aandhi)

Naive

I know this is very naive of me to write this here , but ...
Diabetes , high BP , neglected health literally kills and can kill any one .
I mean to all the poeple who think 'Ah! what-can -happen-t o- me ! , especially them. Witnessed a premature death of an aunt just this morning and she was a classic example of this.

Huh!

I know this blog has slowly turned into a diary of my life, but all blogs are like that , right?
what the heck , and anyways who's reading it , except some good pals , and my own logins !!!
But writing some thing into this one has become a habit now , and a feel good factor .

My Gemini characteristics are pushing up.!

Thought of the day:

Human nature is such , that it focusses only on the short comings and conveniently forgets the good things , like the other day i went to the family doctor , she has come back from a visit from her son in US , and when i asked how was the trip she said . Wow ! it was the longest break in my life! and this was the only postive thing i heard from her again.

The she started to pour out her problems , the demise of her husband last year, the 'responsiblity of having to marry her son left on her shoulders , the loneliness , of course they are major factors in themsleves , but she could have stressed on the places she might have seen there and the large apartment of her son , but well u see , human nature does not permit that.

And the same applies to me also. :)))) , but i guess i have updated all the good and bad things here . Ami right?

Except ME!

Here i am finally writing this on my blog.
Pretending wont help now , nor 'oh! i will think about this some other time'. Not much to gape at but , but i often tend to believe that this is not my part of life, but in fact this is just my life going on now. Like different phases , there was a time when , i thought i would never be getting a 'good' job , but again the curves of fate topsied , turvied and ended up some where called here .

Drained and exhausted for three days , i did not want this meeting today .Really i just wanted to take it easy this week end , be at home, glued to TV , or just a visit to friend.But , no, there is no mercy , and i have to go through all this , added to the fact that my father also turned up for this.I don't know why people want to show up without proper formalities , no snaps, no details of who am i going to meet ,what am i supposed to expect here . But there was no-time for war with dad nor the energy.

Well finally after signal from my mom , i ventured forth , and after initial introduction, i just kept staring at the girl ( the prospective groom's SIL) , she was the only bearable sight in the trio.There was nothing bad actually but , i did not venture to talk this guy. I mean i just did not feel like it. Shuffling feet , narrow glances nothing induced me to talk to him, i am asking myself why ? may be this is what is there , and i am supposed to accept this only . His SIL ventured to ask me if i was interested in talk privately, really tell me , what can 2 completely strangers , can have anything to ask each other to talk privately . I being the 'scandal' of the house said , 'may be some other time' and also added to it , we can talk as well here. OOPS!!!! This will never be pardoned from their side ;;;;;) . But to cover my so called 'bad' manners after getting a glance from my OMG dad , I asked him , if there is anything to talk. And (wink!) which guy will say yes ! Yes man i did it , At least i did it , in making myself clear , that there was nothing much at least from my side.

But in comparative analysis this was a relatively smooth going for me, thinking of the harrow experience last week. But well, This has been my life now , and i am learning to love it, i mean see who will get the chance to meet so many different natured people , all kind of weirdo guys , strange moms, cranky brothers , staring uncles , time-pass aunts , drop-in-relatives to add up the whole scenario , who will have such wonderful luck , combined into one. Except Me!


P.S : I did it , i did it , i exposed myself on this blog!Its relieving.

Star , Super star

Star , super star ..
This is what i want to be..

u know i am bored of my existance like this ..as a no body in a company ..hardly bothering to talk to any one..this is not how i want to build my relations , i want to have some thing to say to all, more people who smile back when i smile , more activities other than coding and debugging .

But here i am wearing boring dresses , harldy having anything to say , hardly knowing people around , i want to change it. And added to the already existing boredom i moved to bench also.
Atleast i had a object at hand , now that has also vanished.

I need to take up more firm activities , thats for sure or life becomes hell.

Day dreaming.

Some times when i sit in my place before the system and there is no work as in today and many days to come i want this to happen.

1. Some one coming from back , a real warm person , and ask me .

.......Arre what happened ...
And i wish i could answer coherently , since sitting long hours before the system makes me kind of dumb ..

.....Emi ledu...this lack of work is really boring me..

...go and and have a coffee...

..already had 2 from morning...

Kuch nahin hoga ..enjoy karo..kal tho kaam karna hi hoga...

sab yahi kahte hain..lekin...

Sitting in a place where all the people around you are working their heads out is kind of distressing..

2. I visualize some times talking and smiling to some people really close..at work ..
..and one of these days the guy diagonally to me caught me smiling suddenly ..
while i was doing this imaginary stuff.

Out of Sight ..

I am slowly forgetting names of some people ..like the HR who interviewd me form the previous previous company...actually iam very good in remembering the names of poeple ..but now i was thinking while to talking to a colleague ..i was ..what is the name of the person who discussed my package to me..Latha ..rani..Oh then i come and checked the mail id of that person ..Oh yeah ..Rajshee..

The other day i was thinking..what was the name of the person i met in calcutta..Shwetha..sarityha..Oh man she was suchitra..
..
So fianlly it means OUT OF SIGHT IS OUT OF MIND.

Today my kite soared for 10 mts in the sky before a pink kite cut it across.

Gift of 2007!

So here i am into this year and the changes started..I am out from SCE and will be on bench from Monday ..man ..i was sensing some thing from morning ..but any way it was guessed and ought to happen any time now ..and it happened a few weeks before .Well , all the empty benches make some space for me ..as here comes KB.

Still its like i am in the mountains winding through the spiralling paths ..as i did not have much rest from coming back on from my big trip on Thursday ..for all ..i had been to Araku and spent the whole of the 'Happy new year' time there, cut off from all signals ( mobile, Internet,land line) until Wednesday evening.A unique way of celebration i should say..

I know what my friends are thinking ' this girl has come from such a rocking place and see how coolly she is reacting' ..Well the high spirits are just beneath all the cool talk. I have been thirsting to go to some place for a long time and this has really cooled me for now, and will remain with me for some time to come.The reason for that well look ....below

Umm..the beautiful Araku...

Day one : Started in train at 5 45 to find a compartment full of men..and no sight of a single female ..except for the RAC not confirmed people..Silently vowed that the next time i travel alone it s going to be in the 3 -tier AC. ..or any thing better .. Reached vizag at 7 in morning and had to wait for Friends who turned up..man ..3 hours late ...had to pay a fine of Rs100 for waiting so much time in the station..but had no idea that such a system was there in IRS ..anyways cannot complain as they reduced (!!!) my fine from 650 to 100 , seeing my tatkal ticket..pretty hilarious situation actually , though i was tensed for a few minutes then..But every experience is interesting in itself and i befriended a jharkhand girl who was to wait in station till 4 in evening..but man i had company at least for then and was not really bored..what i observed was some people took platform ticket , finished their morning ablutions there , would go out for sight seeing , come back at night and sleep in the waiting room itself..(yuck) but still save money .

Reached the resort 'Jungle bells ' by after noon . Snapshot of same..

the resort here was in the shape of a igloo..with near to perfect arrangements inside, it was relaxing , just the sight of the beds was enough to make one sleep like a log for 2 days. well , the evening followed with a walk in the winding paths , and 'dhingri' dance by the tribal people there, of course arranged by the resort and a decent dinner. And a night so pitch dark , that i thought if the guiding light s were switched off i would be lost in the adjoining jungle or may be stamp on a snake .

Day 2 & 3: Woke to the silence again of the forest around , strange that there should be so much silence in the woods , not a bird chirping around .Later came to know that their is a bird trial and for which you have to walk with a guide into the forest up on the mountains.But still , i did not catch sight of a single unique bird , actually not even a crow or a sparrow. you can have room service and breakfast which is complimentary in the mornings . And after a dozen snaps around , in side the resort , we started for araku.

Cant even now get the images , landscapes of the mountains around out of my eyes .Really beautiful , but it was quite similar to Shimoga to sringeri paththough that path was more crowded compared to here , here there were only tribals to see , with their unique way of tieing the saree. Actually asked a tribal woman on how to tie the saree, which she showed quite promptly , and it was interesting to see all the pleats near the shoulder . So you just wrap it around and pin/tie the pleats near the right shoulder .

The resort in araku again of APTDC , were the most spacious compared to the other two .

The new year eve was spent around a bonfire , warming , people around dancing to the numbers , there were three parties along separately around their bonfires. They made elaborate arrangements unlike us , and had a huge table spread out with liquor in different shaped bottles spread and fully 'mast' in their own world. The adults in this party were so absorbed that a few kids slowly slided into our group , to play around the fire , and if possible to get more closer.

As we did not have any arrangements done and this was just a plan 'right then' we happily stepped into their tunes and enjoyed as much as we could.But the chief part of it was spent in talking , laughing , musical chairs , i tell what no matter how old we get when it comes to playing like this we get into school shoes , (actually never out grew them) . But compared
to previous new year eves , this was quite refreshing and it was so cold that if i blow out air it was coming out as vapour , new thing to me .

I know how to maintain a bon fire now ,simple , keep a petrol bottle ready , the sticks should be preferable dry , but they get damp from the snow , some news papers , keep the sticks in 2 horizontal over two vertical like pattern initially. and when the inside sticks get burnt out shove them inside and put some petrol if the fire is getting thin, and to connect the fire between the sticks , add paper, in the centre . And when the clock stuck 12 , it was a different 12 for the three groups :-) , we shouted ' happy new year ' in most non chorus fashion.

The resort rooms were facing the mountains view and at 6 the next morning it was impossible to outline the mountains from the balcony. The view here below is at almost at 7 30 ..

One can faintly see the mountains view here ...and three small doggies cuddled into each other.

This snap was at 9 30 ..almost..
We started from araku in afternoon and by the time we stopped by at 'Chaaparai' in between it was almost a late afternoon.Chaaparai is a peaceful waterfall actually a water slide and you can sit there with legs in water .Not much of depth of course , but the sight of such a a thing in middle of dense forest excites everyone , and there we were throwing water on each other. Another thing was, i in my stupidity put my foot on a slippery rock and 'thud' fell on my right side with my 'Happy new year dress ' wet on the whole of right side.

Day 3 : Reached Anathagiri hills and i will cal this place a heaven for all 'honey mooners ' ..and for once i regretted coming to this place all alone . It was just a passing thought but still i warn every single person to go there only if you have a partner , its worth it..to hold hands and watch the mountains in silence ..the resort view here is another treat ..as the resorts are mounted on peak of one of the mountains and the restaurant is at the top point.and the ambiance of the resort was like a 3 star hotel , with most tasty food compared to other three ..and primarily the view of the mountains was breath taking ..
I wont bore you all with more description of the view s and landscapes but still the trip was one good thing happened in 2007 ,it was almost like a partaking gift from 2007 .. :-)