Naive

I know this is very naive of me to write this here , but ...
Diabetes , high BP , neglected health literally kills and can kill any one .
I mean to all the poeple who think 'Ah! what-can -happen-t o- me ! , especially them. Witnessed a premature death of an aunt just this morning and she was a classic example of this.

Huh!

I know this blog has slowly turned into a diary of my life, but all blogs are like that , right?
what the heck , and anyways who's reading it , except some good pals , and my own logins !!!
But writing some thing into this one has become a habit now , and a feel good factor .

My Gemini characteristics are pushing up.!

Thought of the day:

Human nature is such , that it focusses only on the short comings and conveniently forgets the good things , like the other day i went to the family doctor , she has come back from a visit from her son in US , and when i asked how was the trip she said . Wow ! it was the longest break in my life! and this was the only postive thing i heard from her again.

The she started to pour out her problems , the demise of her husband last year, the 'responsiblity of having to marry her son left on her shoulders , the loneliness , of course they are major factors in themsleves , but she could have stressed on the places she might have seen there and the large apartment of her son , but well u see , human nature does not permit that.

And the same applies to me also. :)))) , but i guess i have updated all the good and bad things here . Ami right?

Except ME!

Here i am finally writing this on my blog.
Pretending wont help now , nor 'oh! i will think about this some other time'. Not much to gape at but , but i often tend to believe that this is not my part of life, but in fact this is just my life going on now. Like different phases , there was a time when , i thought i would never be getting a 'good' job , but again the curves of fate topsied , turvied and ended up some where called here .

Drained and exhausted for three days , i did not want this meeting today .Really i just wanted to take it easy this week end , be at home, glued to TV , or just a visit to friend.But , no, there is no mercy , and i have to go through all this , added to the fact that my father also turned up for this.I don't know why people want to show up without proper formalities , no snaps, no details of who am i going to meet ,what am i supposed to expect here . But there was no-time for war with dad nor the energy.

Well finally after signal from my mom , i ventured forth , and after initial introduction, i just kept staring at the girl ( the prospective groom's SIL) , she was the only bearable sight in the trio.There was nothing bad actually but , i did not venture to talk this guy. I mean i just did not feel like it. Shuffling feet , narrow glances nothing induced me to talk to him, i am asking myself why ? may be this is what is there , and i am supposed to accept this only . His SIL ventured to ask me if i was interested in talk privately, really tell me , what can 2 completely strangers , can have anything to ask each other to talk privately . I being the 'scandal' of the house said , 'may be some other time' and also added to it , we can talk as well here. OOPS!!!! This will never be pardoned from their side ;;;;;) . But to cover my so called 'bad' manners after getting a glance from my OMG dad , I asked him , if there is anything to talk. And (wink!) which guy will say yes ! Yes man i did it , At least i did it , in making myself clear , that there was nothing much at least from my side.

But in comparative analysis this was a relatively smooth going for me, thinking of the harrow experience last week. But well, This has been my life now , and i am learning to love it, i mean see who will get the chance to meet so many different natured people , all kind of weirdo guys , strange moms, cranky brothers , staring uncles , time-pass aunts , drop-in-relatives to add up the whole scenario , who will have such wonderful luck , combined into one. Except Me!


P.S : I did it , i did it , i exposed myself on this blog!Its relieving.

Star , Super star

Star , super star ..
This is what i want to be..

u know i am bored of my existance like this ..as a no body in a company ..hardly bothering to talk to any one..this is not how i want to build my relations , i want to have some thing to say to all, more people who smile back when i smile , more activities other than coding and debugging .

But here i am wearing boring dresses , harldy having anything to say , hardly knowing people around , i want to change it. And added to the already existing boredom i moved to bench also.
Atleast i had a object at hand , now that has also vanished.

I need to take up more firm activities , thats for sure or life becomes hell.

Day dreaming.

Some times when i sit in my place before the system and there is no work as in today and many days to come i want this to happen.

1. Some one coming from back , a real warm person , and ask me .

.......Arre what happened ...
And i wish i could answer coherently , since sitting long hours before the system makes me kind of dumb ..

.....Emi ledu...this lack of work is really boring me..

...go and and have a coffee...

..already had 2 from morning...

Kuch nahin hoga ..enjoy karo..kal tho kaam karna hi hoga...

sab yahi kahte hain..lekin...

Sitting in a place where all the people around you are working their heads out is kind of distressing..

2. I visualize some times talking and smiling to some people really close..at work ..
..and one of these days the guy diagonally to me caught me smiling suddenly ..
while i was doing this imaginary stuff.

Out of Sight ..

I am slowly forgetting names of some people ..like the HR who interviewd me form the previous previous company...actually iam very good in remembering the names of poeple ..but now i was thinking while to talking to a colleague ..i was ..what is the name of the person who discussed my package to me..Latha ..rani..Oh then i come and checked the mail id of that person ..Oh yeah ..Rajshee..

The other day i was thinking..what was the name of the person i met in calcutta..Shwetha..sarityha..Oh man she was suchitra..
..
So fianlly it means OUT OF SIGHT IS OUT OF MIND.

Today my kite soared for 10 mts in the sky before a pink kite cut it across.

Gift of 2007!

So here i am into this year and the changes started..I am out from SCE and will be on bench from Monday ..man ..i was sensing some thing from morning ..but any way it was guessed and ought to happen any time now ..and it happened a few weeks before .Well , all the empty benches make some space for me ..as here comes KB.

Still its like i am in the mountains winding through the spiralling paths ..as i did not have much rest from coming back on from my big trip on Thursday ..for all ..i had been to Araku and spent the whole of the 'Happy new year' time there, cut off from all signals ( mobile, Internet,land line) until Wednesday evening.A unique way of celebration i should say..

I know what my friends are thinking ' this girl has come from such a rocking place and see how coolly she is reacting' ..Well the high spirits are just beneath all the cool talk. I have been thirsting to go to some place for a long time and this has really cooled me for now, and will remain with me for some time to come.The reason for that well look ....below

Umm..the beautiful Araku...

Day one : Started in train at 5 45 to find a compartment full of men..and no sight of a single female ..except for the RAC not confirmed people..Silently vowed that the next time i travel alone it s going to be in the 3 -tier AC. ..or any thing better .. Reached vizag at 7 in morning and had to wait for Friends who turned up..man ..3 hours late ...had to pay a fine of Rs100 for waiting so much time in the station..but had no idea that such a system was there in IRS ..anyways cannot complain as they reduced (!!!) my fine from 650 to 100 , seeing my tatkal ticket..pretty hilarious situation actually , though i was tensed for a few minutes then..But every experience is interesting in itself and i befriended a jharkhand girl who was to wait in station till 4 in evening..but man i had company at least for then and was not really bored..what i observed was some people took platform ticket , finished their morning ablutions there , would go out for sight seeing , come back at night and sleep in the waiting room itself..(yuck) but still save money .

Reached the resort 'Jungle bells ' by after noon . Snapshot of same..

the resort here was in the shape of a igloo..with near to perfect arrangements inside, it was relaxing , just the sight of the beds was enough to make one sleep like a log for 2 days. well , the evening followed with a walk in the winding paths , and 'dhingri' dance by the tribal people there, of course arranged by the resort and a decent dinner. And a night so pitch dark , that i thought if the guiding light s were switched off i would be lost in the adjoining jungle or may be stamp on a snake .

Day 2 & 3: Woke to the silence again of the forest around , strange that there should be so much silence in the woods , not a bird chirping around .Later came to know that their is a bird trial and for which you have to walk with a guide into the forest up on the mountains.But still , i did not catch sight of a single unique bird , actually not even a crow or a sparrow. you can have room service and breakfast which is complimentary in the mornings . And after a dozen snaps around , in side the resort , we started for araku.

Cant even now get the images , landscapes of the mountains around out of my eyes .Really beautiful , but it was quite similar to Shimoga to sringeri paththough that path was more crowded compared to here , here there were only tribals to see , with their unique way of tieing the saree. Actually asked a tribal woman on how to tie the saree, which she showed quite promptly , and it was interesting to see all the pleats near the shoulder . So you just wrap it around and pin/tie the pleats near the right shoulder .

The resort in araku again of APTDC , were the most spacious compared to the other two .

The new year eve was spent around a bonfire , warming , people around dancing to the numbers , there were three parties along separately around their bonfires. They made elaborate arrangements unlike us , and had a huge table spread out with liquor in different shaped bottles spread and fully 'mast' in their own world. The adults in this party were so absorbed that a few kids slowly slided into our group , to play around the fire , and if possible to get more closer.

As we did not have any arrangements done and this was just a plan 'right then' we happily stepped into their tunes and enjoyed as much as we could.But the chief part of it was spent in talking , laughing , musical chairs , i tell what no matter how old we get when it comes to playing like this we get into school shoes , (actually never out grew them) . But compared
to previous new year eves , this was quite refreshing and it was so cold that if i blow out air it was coming out as vapour , new thing to me .

I know how to maintain a bon fire now ,simple , keep a petrol bottle ready , the sticks should be preferable dry , but they get damp from the snow , some news papers , keep the sticks in 2 horizontal over two vertical like pattern initially. and when the inside sticks get burnt out shove them inside and put some petrol if the fire is getting thin, and to connect the fire between the sticks , add paper, in the centre . And when the clock stuck 12 , it was a different 12 for the three groups :-) , we shouted ' happy new year ' in most non chorus fashion.

The resort rooms were facing the mountains view and at 6 the next morning it was impossible to outline the mountains from the balcony. The view here below is at almost at 7 30 ..

One can faintly see the mountains view here ...and three small doggies cuddled into each other.

This snap was at 9 30 ..almost..
We started from araku in afternoon and by the time we stopped by at 'Chaaparai' in between it was almost a late afternoon.Chaaparai is a peaceful waterfall actually a water slide and you can sit there with legs in water .Not much of depth of course , but the sight of such a a thing in middle of dense forest excites everyone , and there we were throwing water on each other. Another thing was, i in my stupidity put my foot on a slippery rock and 'thud' fell on my right side with my 'Happy new year dress ' wet on the whole of right side.

Day 3 : Reached Anathagiri hills and i will cal this place a heaven for all 'honey mooners ' ..and for once i regretted coming to this place all alone . It was just a passing thought but still i warn every single person to go there only if you have a partner , its worth it..to hold hands and watch the mountains in silence ..the resort view here is another treat ..as the resorts are mounted on peak of one of the mountains and the restaurant is at the top point.and the ambiance of the resort was like a 3 star hotel , with most tasty food compared to other three ..and primarily the view of the mountains was breath taking ..
I wont bore you all with more description of the view s and landscapes but still the trip was one good thing happened in 2007 ,it was almost like a partaking gift from 2007 .. :-)

Wishes for all!

Wishing all
freshest freshness,
happiest thoughts ,
warmest wishes ,
Cheeriest cheers,
healthiest health ,
funniest fun,
lovliest love,

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and hopefully the positive optimistic mood continues sans the loneliness .

Welcome 2008 .