.. the clouds are looking over bearing and seem to offer no hope of a good sun for ages to come by and winter is setting itself in all its glory happy to tear every tree of its multicolored leaves and bare the skeleton for all to see . The fall party is finished and she is packing up and throwing out all the colors to the borders of the lakes and blowing them with her famous chilly eastern winds ....and the people are preparing for the winters with stacks full of jerseys , coats and gloves .

..and i want to curl up in a sofa with a cup of chai and listen to good old bollywood songs ..esp this one ..to see after ages ...not a hot one nor a close one to heart but still it felt as if i was watching rangoli in DD again.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-0KhQY9bD3M


and another one which comes a bit closer is this one ..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w2HJR_T2NFA

..look at the costume of bindiya goswami .. ..i am missing today jeetendras , dharmendra , sanjeev kumar etc., and want to watch a good old Hindi movie.

Hey i have reached a stage that i can fix a meal , give it the look like home food , gobble it up even without any company and eat two or more sweets after that. How does it sound ? Aunty ish right !!

Made dondakaya koora and it tasted like home curry after a very long time and as hubby was not coming for lunch , normally i skip doing things , leave half prepared meals till night , but today i completed the lunch and literally ate tummy full . Some thing is wrong .and then i ate the two rava ladoos ( yes i made them for diwali and lo! they came out well though actually you can ignore the finger marks and the elliptical shape of almost all ) how do they make such round ones really !! and then give a sign of a big blurp! .

I have declared myself aunty.

My idea of 'diya' for diwali :- 4 candles brought for $1 and tissue papers under them lining the balcony. The other indians brought electric lights and wrapped to the balcony in different shapes .It was good that way too.

F.u.r.n.i.t.u.r.e

I am ought to feel a little better ,
As i see a house full of furniture ,
but then the words keep coming to my ear,
'Dearie these things are not for real '!!..

( Wow these lines rhyme )

..i should have been some kind of carpenter or some thing in my last janma to have collected so much furniture in 1.3 years of marriage !!

Furniture fuss.

..walk a long alley ..climb 3 floors ..walk another long alley ..say the stupid hi and bye , carry the dismantled furniture ..walk the same path back , dump it in home and ...4 times was quite enough for the season .

...Its hard to relive the day again in this blog but the wonderful thing for the day was the continuous fall of snow like white powder till evening .It as beautiful , I suppose all the adjectives i heard about snow are correct till now . Hubby woke up at 6 30 today and asked me to see outside and i was amazed to see all the parked cars were covered by a white layer including the tree near our window .So i brushed , put on all the clothes and went outside to get a few snaps taken . It was nice to see the whole green color around covered by 'white'. Called family and showed the 'event' in web cam to Amma and Mahesh .Missed father today so much as he might have enjoyed the snow sight more than any one .

Link for the day :-

http://images.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://www.selfawareness.com/ChuniLalLahiri_GreatGrandsonofLahiriMahasai_.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.selfawareness.com/SSSFullLengthBio.html&usg=__8RDzW3NhDNbnntXIcTV9uOx7Yg4=&h=543&w=800&sz=57&hl=en&start=5&tbnid=HsNm5pm5bSONvM:&tbnh=97&tbnw=143&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dlahiri%2Bmahasaya%26gbv%3D2%26hl%3Den

Picture for the day : -

Song of the day :-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U-87oXpW-KU&feature=PlayList&p=99847A9483C75BA2&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=3

have been watching TV in true sense for the past two days , and i have found the reason for the obesity , laziness , slowness in the whole american system . This is the culprit. .. ..and what frightened me was the number of commercials for pills , lotions etc., Pills for chromes disease (new disease names ), medical liquids for growing lashes ( with the side effects mentioned which is itchiness , black circles below eyes ) and once you stop them the lashes just fall off ( which is even more alarming ) .And after watching a continuous marathon of movies this sweet video brought back such peace to the house hold .

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TmZ5U9SfDNk&feature=related

Dont read it !

...so i don't want to write about anything that is happening around me forget even the place i am now except that i make myself kind of busy and well make a waste of time in helluva ways .

..I just want to tell that it has been a sunny sunny day! Bye!

....well coming back i wish life had been this dream i wanted to live but obviously am not!

...I wish i had been married at 25 , yes the right age of marriage , had good *** for the first 2 years , had come to the place i am living now , not as a dependent but with a work permit , enjoyed good work in nice companies , feel prouuuuud of myself , have a beautiful vision of studying further , work for that goal , have kids by 28 and 30 .. enjoy work , kids, education the whole of 30's , , have parents living at that age to see me ( !! )..gosh the way i manage to land up at the wrong times , wrong places wrong mishaps . Sign!! bye again!!! I wish i never cme bak to this blog again as this is such a record of all the sad thoughts , terrible moments , of broken dreams ,sour experiences .....

but as you see i wake up again tomm morning , go through a depressingly domestic day and feel the same way at the end of day and not sleep till 2 in the morning and just go through another day and so on..you see there is no difference in the perceptions .

Alampur and its stories

...so the people asked for rains and god gave floods . Yes he gave what you asked and i need not write again what he took . It could be that i have seen news reels too much from yesterday but the fact that Alampur is completely immersed made me a bit sad . There was some magic in the name of the place and some times when you hear the description of the place , you just know you have been there before and the mind visualizes some scenes as permitted by its artistic cells . But this place has some back ground and a-many-visualizations in the mind . Mainly because nanna lived there and he wove beautiful stories around that place . He had a knack of telling things when it came to places and mostly the places he liked . So this is the place he learnt to swim and man how the stories wove with the place .

Obviously the kids were energetic those days compared to now and my grand mother was a tired lady with a bunch of kids around her . My peddananna , my father , the little brother and my atta in between and added to these energetic guys was my fathers mama , that is my grand mothers little brother who came late into the family and was sent to his akkas place for summer vacation . So these bunch of guys had just one mission in life to jump from the rocks edging the river and have a boisterous splash. It just sat on the nerves of my grandmother to watch the kids movements the whole day and she devised an idea. And a simple one . Just teach them swimming first before they headed for a disaster. So a town full of swimmers taught these guys the simple technique of the season then , to tie the bamboo sticks around their waist and throw them into water . So through the summer vacation the guys had just one job , jump and swim through the mornings and play near the temples in the evening . So the mention of Alampur temples was quite frequent then and now that it is submerged maybe, it is its way of missing the 'summer gang' of that time . I hope to visit the place some time .

And here are the links of the curious image of Alampur.


Coming back to this world , though its chilly we could see the sun in the mornings and had to ultimately bring the heater home yesterday . The flat is getting too cold now .

God 's style of doing things

"Give with one hand and snatch from the other hand"

..this is the thought i get when i see my marriage snaps.

...Its getting difficult to write things since there seems to be so many things inside the head , that even though i have been trying to sort the whole day , i just come out with out any thing clearly .I don't know what to call this state of mind . Hubby was telling me that since i spend some time in writing things , why don't i try to write some thing creative like Sudha murthy (!!) . I thought about it and tried to look inside myself to find a chaos space of flying thoughts and random pictures of life just gliding by at their own will . I have just no control over them and i just look at his noisy place clamored with thoughts, with incoherent second and third track talking at the same time and making it just the more mess . I just have to shut the space to be sane and go about the normal pace of life and be sane . I think the day i can do that i will be a mahatma who has tasted nirvana ( !!) . Well any way these are just the ramblings of a slightly over-leisured mind which has found a vent to throw-up.

The weather here has become just insane like my 'thought space' and its been raining for the past two days with the apartment becoming 'CCCCChilly' .The neigh borer has shared her small heater with me and it helped us survive the day .

Its funny how days can just pass by with doing nothing productive even though there are hundred ways of making myself productive . I have found a interesting read in the blog Within-without which should be read to understand the general mood of the whites in England and once you understand the mood of them , you can feel the dangerous underlying current behind all this 'white' wash.

..and and i am totally unemployed from today to be precise from yesterday , with the 2 month period coming to an end .