Scenes from random meetings.

"I just don't like him"
Why?
Don't know why , it just repelled me that day.
But you didn't talk to him..
There is no need of that ..it repelled me all the same.
I think you should meet him
I don't think so.

Why exactly ? he has money good family ..i need to know why?

I hated the way he came and sat before me ..

How else can he sit..

I am telling i did not like it..

What exactly you didn't like ..

He has no conversation....no talk in him..what exactly did you like in him..

Stupid girl! cant you understand ..he has come from good family..

So what is good family ..a funny bro , mom who looks at his son as if he 's a namuna. ..Its not enough for me..

So what do you want exactly..

basic decency..

What is basic decency..

Good manners ..

So u think he has no manners ..

Yes i think so..

How can any one come to a new place , sit with a open collar, sprawling his legs, yawn uncontrollably and expect a girl to like ..

That 's why i want you to meet again..

It will not change any thing..so even you did not like him too..?

The bottom line is i cant stay with such a kind of person all my life..

Well you were born stupid and stubborn..

Well i got your genes too..

Shut up.

Thank you.

A constant company

It was always there..right from Good old days... a constant company ..
just a step behind ..most of the times ..though some times just lucky enough to have some silly company , through the college days , sitting alone in a single bench waiting for the faculty to turn up, through the time spent at home, through the long hours of work , through everything there has been just the company of me and my.....

..It stayed so long at the back ..that i had to fall for it one day..

My loneliness and me..:)

Child chat

This sunday i met my bro , SIL , and my 5 year old nephew. Actually we know each other very well as from the calcutta days. There he was this crying stubborn crysome boy who would not have any friend to play with , as my Anna 's family itself had hardly any contacts with the neighbourhood. I rememeber he talking to the dogs and cats on the street and shouting at th balcony , then there it was his place , and harldy allowed any one to come into that .

After relocating to hyd he proudly introduced me to his friends , urmila , kalyan and bharat.There is also a mahesh who lives in the top floor , he is tall and plays only in evenings when there is a light.

Me : what do you play with daily?
Urmi : we have 2 cycles , one car .
Me : So you 4 play with 3 ..vehicles only..
Kalyan: I have a small bicycle.
Urmi : but it does not work
Bharat: Mahesh anna also plays with us, ..but he is big..
Me : what you play only with cycles and car..Don't you play ice-pice....

They are now puzzled what is ice-pice, but wont ask me what is it..
Instead they again tell me the whole bicycle's and car thing and mahesh.

Me : So where you go on your car and bicycle .

I am proudly taken over to their houses , car shed , cycle shed.

There are 4 brick houses with three bricks placed in pyramid shape ( triangle ) and double flooried shed for vehicles. In the first floor the cycles are placed and car is palced in second floor .

There is also a cycle path and car path seperate as they should not dash into each other . (info from bharat)
This path spiralled from the steps to Gate. ( its almost like railyway track u see)

Me : It looks like a railway track to me..

the 4 in unison say Noooooo it is a car path...

Oh how will car go in such a road..
then they point to me the edging lines ..the car wheels should be placed on them and there Will be gravel in between.

Man ..what a sound answer ..I didn't have any more doubts.

Khwahish : Travelling

Reading other blogs leaves you with one thing to muse over :
Why did the other world has just slipped away from our palms ..I mean why did not we not get to travel as much as we really deserved (???!!!)..New places ..
And this puts me to thinking how much have i travelled in india..and how much have i enjoyed my own city for once..

There are few places i go ..but then we repeatedly keep going to those places ..almost to the extent of getting bored ( actually got ) bored ..

The only places i have visited (very few )have been very beautiful ..But all have been religious places ..and not the ones where you can back-pack and walk the road .all in all..They are very few places.

List of places to be seen :
South :
Kanya kumari
Sriranga patnam
Kerala : (reserved for some one ) ;)
Rameshwaram

North :
Rajasthan
Kashmir
Uttaranchal

12/07/2007

Its Friday ..i had to attend a training ..today ..i should have actually....ass that i am i postponed it to next Thursday..

Saw the mail box holding my breath ..expecting at least one feedback for the code written..
pheew..they still dint do the testing........
Now some where next week i am booked..
M is online ..bless her new project ..she is always there ..now ..
Will now have a day of chatting , blogging..etc.,

One hour down : Now i understood what is the meaning of the immediate approval of my leave application.......Project is coming to an end...and i can hear roll off bells ..Another project to belly..should say that it was fairly good work though everything got stretched more than needed .good first experience in this new company.Good show.not a bad feed back from manger too.i need a POB.

Two hours : Hey i wish there was work ..and i was racking my brain..but god no deaaaaaaaad lines please. I also want to work from client place........on second thoughts may be not...!!!!$@#!!

Three hours : I am studying you know one huge word document ...hungrwy.. OK still 5 .. after one tea ..i am again hungry..i don't know why these days i am always hungry.. before i was hungry every 3 hrs ..now it is like every 2 hours ..and ( i ate yestreday my lunch box + masala corn (canteen) went home at 12 again had curry and puligore ..) and slept the most sound sleep in recent times ..

Four hours : Had a glimpse of 'Lord of the Rings ' ( thats what the gym room is named ) Apt right!! Had a cup of masala corn..but still hungrwy..walked back ..had a chat in the super climate with madhu..saw the people coming to different processes at 6 Pm , bad right ..thanks life's not bad at least.......Long back in my previous company i was always taking evening break ..compulsory to eat some thing ..one reason could be i was working on 9 floor and canteen was on 10 floor ..but now i have to walk two blocks..and you see i am buzzzzzy. ;)
shall i tell a joke ..there is a guy who sits diagonally to me..he is always so engrossed in his laptop that i thought ..here is one person who really works..and i saw chori chori what he was doing in afternoon ..he was on yahoo....advantage of a laptop you see ..innocent people like me get cheated easily .........and i think half the people on the floor around me know now that i am not having work.. :P

Five Hours : I am slightly close to getting mad with boredom..this is not a place where you can stand up and yawn loudly..talk loudly..and and there is actually not many people who can come out ..cant blame them actually ..i was equally busy last weeks ..and could not move from my place..and i am hungrwy again..boo..hoo..

Six hours : Just now heard bad news ..it seems they are going to assign work before vacation..damn them.. :(((((((((((

Seven hours : I am badly hungry now.

Eight Hour : i am kiskofying now ..ta ta ta .

Quote of the day

I am getting senti these days.. ;) ;)

Me and bro

I have read some where ..,may be in some blog ..that to have a sibling and enjoying some thing with them in common ..i mean love of some thing say games, food or going out leaves you with enormous joy ..

whoever reads this should leave a note on what they have love to do with their bros/or sis..ok?

Now what do i have common with my brother ...I will think and come back i guess its difficult to answer this question.

Rolling days

From monday to tuesday to wednesday to thursday to friday to week end..

This year's last days are rolling by..

Gyan

I have been communicating with this guy through emails, and spoke to him over the phone once for a few hours. Then we met in a gathering where we couldn't really talk as many people were around us. Then he emails me. Quoting his words "I am sure you are a lovely person." Do you think he is interested in me or is it kind of avoiding statement? Appreciate your feed back. Thanks, K.


Dear K., That statement is very polite, but politein this case is not what you want. If the man isinterested in you, you will know it. He will finda way to talk to you even in a crowd. So do notemail him again unless he emails you first. If Igot an email with those words and not much else,I probably would not even respond!

Wait a long time before responding, and rememberthe Underwear Rule of Email To Men - keep it BRIEF.That is a part of my book titled 'Calling Men'!

You know the old saying "I won't go where I'm notwanted"? That is, in my opinion, a sign of a healthypersonality. Yet there are people who do PUSH others,insisting that they "let them into their lives."

There is no one lover or friend that you cannot live without -except for yourself! No matter how much you may THINK it'smeant to be, that doesn't mean that it is. God may have otherplans for you. So when things don't work out in love, or whena door is slammed in your face - don't waste a lot of energyfighting against it.

Turn your attention to what you CAN make happen. Work on your ownenvironment and life to make it fantastic. And realize that somethings are not meant to be - for a GOOD reason - for what willturn out to be in your own best interest.

The world's most romantic man agrees:


"Fairy tale marriages do exist and you CAN have one," saysMichael Webb, known as the World's Most Romantic Man!

Michael says, "It is amazing how many people are satisfied witha mediocre, even unhappy relationship."

Hmm.

Today i kiskofied from work with RS for just procrastinating in the first place and secondly to quench his greed about whatwasidoingnowinlife.

Well it worked out with me being put all kind of questions about what was i looking for in a guy ..why did it not happen still..giving me incredible looks when i said that i got "rejected"...i tried to mislead him of course ..trying to guide me that i HAVE to come down and marry some one as marrying late was of course not acceptable at allllllllllllllllllllll...


When i asked him how his wife was doing ..he has to admit that it was a bit early for her to carry a child ..and that she was getting distressed by evening. Well mister i just tried to avoid that in my life.

God how do i tell this people that its just not my style of marrying just about any one who comes my way..

.............or may be i will .

To the One who took my interview ..

To the One who took my interview ..

u stare at me..and turn my side..
u keep looking and wonder if you have seen me some where ...

Yes yes yes ..i am the same person...
and i dont know how to break the ice with you..
as you just stare without a smile ..

May be i should just stare back also..
as there is not much to say also..

do you stare just because i am the new facce ..
or ..because i am here because of your approval..

P.S : this is not a poem.

Today

To day i came at 2.00 clock afternoon with my ears plugged ...and after getting no mail or any kind of communication.. i am leaving at 6.00 again with my ears plugged .

25 Things about me.

For many days i have wanted to write about this thing 'about me' but i am not sure i can make them 50.

1. I am a female working as an analyst in one of the MNC's in Hyderabad.
2. I have an experience of 2.4 in SAP-ABAP and right from the first year of my work as an programmer , i wanted to shift to functional areas but never made any concrete plans of them .
3. I did not have any training from any company as a fresher , which made my way into the present position very very tough , i still believe that it is only destiny which has pulled me into this stream , i had no plans what so ever to come here.
4. I am actually a mechanical Production graduate from DCET and have been trained in areas of PRO-E and Auto cad , i also worked on GIS for some time before finding my way into this field.
5. I still feel i have taken a wrong decision in not fighting over with my dad , when i got acceptance letter from SI university but did not really have the fire to pursue it like all my friends. It has left me with nothing but a graduate degree and no specialization.If i had on that day pursued it , may be i would have been working as a design engineer or may be like the fashion of the day , i would also have done research and talked a lot about it.God the decisions we take some time.
6. My job scenario till now has always been changing with me always moving either from project to project or the company itself.
7. My last change of job was in July after a tensed up period and struggle.One thing is o have worked only in reputed company's and luckily in Hyderabad only.
8. I was in Calcutta for a short stint , but again as destiny called me back here for good. My short stay there tought me 'howcanlifebeoutsidelivingwithstrangers'.both my room mates there were from mumbai.It left with me both some good and very bad experiences .
9. My professional life had always with it a stint of uncertainty , not now but quite a lot in beginning as i was working then as a contractor.
10. I have met many good friends , from different companies , in this process of change , from one place to another .
11. Before coming to the IT industry i have also worked for some in a domestic call center , making my life a big hell, and going tot he point of depression , i never enjoyed the job , had a fear of talking to strangers on phone, though the product was good , the monotonous talking made me mad at the end of day.
12. The best thing about that job was the exposure to all kind of people , and the general compliments i used to get about my voice from customers and also from peers.
13. I cannot boast that my college life was great , since i was the only girl in a class of 23 , and felt bouts of loneliness sometimes .I generally mingled with Mech girls . Passed with a percentage of 70.4% ( skidded into distinction by 0.4% )
14. there is a story behind this also, when i got all my sem mark cards , there was a valuation mistake and the percentage was 69 % , but my careful calculations showed 70.4 % , when i checked all the individual cards seperatley and compared them to consolidated , i could see that there was typo error in one of them . ( ha ha ..no one could stop me that day )
15. My only friend now from college in now inUS , doing a job , she went quite late , and recently joined in a job.One more is in UK with a huband and job in SAP itself, and another one is kind of stuck up in 'notsohappylooking' marriage.She was the brightest of us all with a real zeal and passion in setting goals.all the guys are either now on the verge of marrying or are married , with i having no knowledge of the Muslim friends, who never bothered to keep in touch.
16. My class in DCET was so stupid that they did not even take my email id while leaving college .
17. I was actually non existent for them , except for in labs when they needed some help. i still hate them all from bottom of heart.
18. My favourite lecturer was mechanical design Rajini mam , who was the only talkative person in the not so friendly environment.
19. I see some of my acquaintances in orkut , but have not added them yet to my list.
20. The interesting part of my life started only after college.
21. My close pals have always been M and S , who keep my life pepped up with their presence around me.I cant imagine how would life be without them.
22. In my family i am more attached to mom , though dad and i have a lot more in common. Mom and i have a deep understanding between us and i rely on her for many things, including some major and minor decisions .She like me has a sensitive nature and that binds us together , but she does not have many of my gemini charecteristics which makes us sometime differ in the reaction for the same thing, but in overall she has been great asset to me and she is one person i think a late marriage is worth for. Mom i have thourughly taken comfort in your company , i need not say that but all the same , this is about me.
23. My dad and i have a nasty temper , restlessness in common.we just cannot stop from talking some times , and jump to conclusions quite quickly . as a child i remember dad having a very bad temper which cooled down only with age..Mom / bro tell it runs in the 'that side' of the family and i am a direct recepient of it. Maybe i am..One thing in common in both of us is the easiness with which we can get dishearten when some thing does not go as planned , but definitely i can boast of a much more cheerful nature and clear thinking than him. he is learning ..:P
24. the one thing i should thank both of them is the religiousness which has been passed down to me from them. ...
25. My prayers have grown in intensity and depth with age ...and this is one thing i am happy about me.

Week End .

The week end has been spent in

1. Cooking,
2. taking care that the house doesnt turn upside down.
3. Cleaning and more cleaning.
4. One lunch party
5. no sleep at all
6.only one music class ..and singing horribly in it.
7.Preparing to-do list for home.
( it had total 22 points to be checked ..right from bathromm tiles to almarah decolum )..sure it wil take 2 months to get them done..)
8.Pleasure of seeing the house in new furniture. really amazing what new pieces can do to the look of house..
9. Enjoying the after effect of a well planned idea.
10. Getting surprised at some one 's missed call..(it turned out to be nothing after all..)
the 'after allll' is more pronounced than lizzys in P & P.
11.Watching P and P again now fo course from a different scene.


I guess thats it.

mera kaam

My work as for all people demands most of my day here ..Little choice actually..

Its a kind of work which when it comes leaves you grasping for air........

I worked from 11 to 11 literally hardly finding time to get up from cubicle..and now i dont know what todo in this place..

then i wanted to write something about ..actually a lot about what was happening ..especially one about my Pl and his dammned attitude ..and did not find time..now when there is plenty of time ..i dont know what to put down..there is a lot but i cannot point on something.

But i am reading a loooot.

Blogging my way

Reading so many blogs of shoefiend..it is like i am in the tube train and watching the english people maintaining a stoic silence over the journey.I can actually feel it sitting in my cubilce at work..They are damn good writers especially shoefiend , but the flavour is definitely tamil and it 's stong.


.....and another strong reason to find the huge community of tamilian ladies to blog so much ..

one reason obviously of course the need to express themselves ..
..and secondly they being good readers ..from the fact that chennai hosts a large number of libraries and lending centers ..

actually in my one month stay in chennai last year , M took me to her book lending center ..

Last diwali night

Last Diwali night was spent on the road of Gandhinagar bursting a big box of flower pots, pencils,rockets, sixty shots, 1000 wala , 500 wala,cracklers, laxmi bombs, hydrogen bombs, A new variety of bomb which throws colored papers of green , red , yellow instead of sound, shouted, yelled at midnight on roads,..had good fun.

last diwali ..this diwali

how is my diwali different from the last years..
Hard to tell this..

positive things :
1 . different company.
2. Can say better work.
3. More stable and strong both mentally and physically.
4. Regular "Good " things.
5. positive outlook of life.
6. Strong belief in the adage " We get richer as we grow older"
7. B has come out of college
8. Good results.
9.Life more interesting.
10. Reconfirmation of the fact that what ever happens for good., Cheers.



Negative things :
1. No change in situations
2. Bad fight to struggle and survive.
3. Same old status.( badi..lambi raat hai.. kind of )

Ethnicity

Jaane kya baat hai..
jaane kya baat hai..
neend nahi aati ..badi lambi raat hai..

This is for the longeest period of life , when you feel 'the D-day ' for you is never going to come at all..
Actually even though it has not been that looong , it is loong..

Thank you blogger for giving me this platform , where you can express yourself to the core and be happy for not bothering any one.

today i wore a saree to work being part of 'trying to look ethnic'..
I wondered what actually the guy who sits diagonally really think about me..because i did not find any expression in him to suggest that there is any change in the person , whom he actually sees if he just turns his head a little , ..
I think the ethnicity of my dress did not actually turn on ..though actually it does not matter..
Some times i badly miss having a real boy friend in life..some one who can treat you special when the occasion arises ..some one who can be one of the reasons for a smile some times when the 'lambi raat' never seems to come to na end..

Rambling thoughts

Once again i am back to the 'waiting for mail from onsite ' phase and again there i am with little to do and a lot to muse about.

The thoughts which have been occupied me now have been gruelling us for some time now and i guess i f i don't put them down at some point now will never be able to do it right.The constant argument between me , (actually my group ) of unmarried girls , who chose to do it by taking some time ....and all the 'good wishers ' around us who want to end up some where 'married ' has never failed to pull us down and set us thinking about ..hey where are we( it implies to all my group of females ' not yet committed ' .. all headed to'?..hummish hummish humm..

Part one : This part of the story surfaces when we are all still fresh from college ... and the the minds of the family and self are not yet polluted with th e 'longeest ' period of searching in life for the right person?
Well i guess i ma deviating here and want to confine this to the comparison of life of the unmarried and married one's.

All my college Friends excepting a few are now married with the prospect of having a child in the near future .I try to find happiness in their countenance , but fail to do , mainly because it could be that they are just projecting the sad part of their marriages ..and secondly may be i failed to find some happiness in their life itself.
they are in fact very envious over our budding careers ..our freedom to take a decision without the 'permission' of the hubby ..
the sheer happiness of being at home , spending considerable time with family meaning amma, nanna , bro, etc.,)..the joy of spending your own money without the interference from any one and thinking too much about saving , loans etc.,


They fail sometimes to value the importance of having a partner at their side ..
It has come so easily to them that they don't know their life without hubby at side.
they want to spend considerable time with them selves ..which is now impossible ..
and they start envying all the uncommitted people ..
I know its a kind of reiteration of the above point but all the same ..

They have definitely missed this part of life where you can come form work and tell mom about al the interesting happenings ..your promotions ..the joy in family when you have done it good ..

..one more thing is they have not seen definitely not seen many guys around like us at work ..outside..

..to be contd.

Adi Sankaracharya

To think that adi sankaracharya lived only 32-years before he became one with the ONE is always amazing..i have read his bio graphy many a times ..but still when i come across the line that he has done everything in 32 -years always lives me in awe.

It is just the sicearity of a soul which wanted to see the truth , saw it , spread it ..and still we are following the same advaitic way of religion which again amazes me ..

Have a look at the way he sings from the bottom of his soul :

Na thatho, na matha,
na bandur na datha,
Na puthro, na puthri , na bruthyo ,
na bartha,Na jayaa na Vidhya,
na Vruthir mamaiva,Gathisthwam, Gathisthwam Thwam ekaa Bhavani.

Neither the mother nor the father,Neither the relation nor the friend,Neither the son nor the daughter,Neither the servant nor the husband,Neither the wife nor the knowledge,And neither my sole occupation,Are my refuges that I can depend, Oh, Bhavani,

Courtesy : http://www.celextel.org/adisankara/bhavaniashtakam.html

Jwalath kodi balarka bhasarunangim,
Sulavanya srungara lokabhiramam,
Mahapadma kinjalka madhye virajat,
Trikone nishannam bhaje sri Bhavanim. 2

I sing about that Bhavani,
Who sits in the triangle,
Which shines in the stamen of the great lotus,
Who has the luster of crores of rising suns,



Ithi sri Bhavani swaroopam thavedam,
Prapanchat param chahi sookshma prasannam,
Sphuratvambha dimbhasya mey hrth saroje,
Sada Vang mayam sarva thejo mayam cha. 10


This form of yours, Oh Bhavani,
Which is much above the universe,
In its micro form,May please shine in the lotus heart mine,
And bless me in your lustrous form,S
o that I rule over the wealth of words.
Who is immensely pretty,
And who attracts the entire world by her charm.


For more see here : http://www.celextel.org/adisankara/bhavanibhujangam.html

Miss .Debugger

The whole of the past two weeks were spent in coding, decoding, searching for processes, debugging , hunting for people who knew how to do the work..and doing it from my side..

....and finally i get the call on friday evening (night 9 .0 ) that the requirement is going to change..man this is i called one big ..dont know what..

I am not going to login for the next 2 days ..and i have kept some of the work for monday..:)

ab kya bologe...:::))))))

Close

Yesterday , when getting down from cab, i decided to go from back of cab, and was crossing the cab , when the driver started to take a back gear, he did not see that i was at the back.and i took some very fast steps , till now dont know how big , to avoid being hit...Its like time stopped for a second after that ..and i was really breath less for a few mts..thinking about all the things if i had been hit by the fast backing vehicle..
It was a bit close.

Tipsy , Upsy

Tipsy , Upsy , peppysy, downsy , Upsy, Cry sy, Joysy,...
All part of the day.

zindagi ke mod..

zingadi ki raah mein itne mod dekh liye hain.
ki ab taazub ho bhi tho kis baat ki...
....ab hum soche bhi tho kis baat ki..

Rest room talk.

She rushes into the rest room..spalshes water on her face..dabs it in a hurry...unzips the bag, brings out the toilette bag..powders her face...presses her lips for the lipstick.....looks at her dress..then the view in mirror ..gives a smile...looks around ....

..takes a last minute call..and says 'coming' ..'coming'

***************
(sob) i told you on that day i was going to come..Why did you not pick me..and now..(sob)..you say..i don't come at all..(sob)..I am working so hard for everything..(sniff)..

***************
girl1 (outside ) : What did you do for the week end?
girl2 (inside ) : hey nothing jsut cleaned my room..what did you do?
girl1 : went to chak de with him...
Want to go again ..will you come?It s super duper..
girl2 : he is going to come this week..
Girl1 :sign..Ok.
**************

Stupid dancer

One thing i observed after last week's party is that people are quite surprised that a person who can't dance can dare to go to dance floor and move a leg.

The way V has come and asked about what I DID in the party is really making me think about what their team would have chatted about in general..Got the general idea..!!!

ha ha its funny how people are reacting...:D

Is jhaam ki subah na ho...

Kabhi kabhi lagta hain..
Ki is dina aur is pal yahi ruk jayein..
kal ki chinta naho..
aur aaj ki jhaam khatam na ho..

kabhi kabhi lagat hain ki ..
agar ho sakein tho is
pal yahi ruk jaye..

Thank you very much for the wonderful evening..
I wish all the good energy like today's fills the whole time..
No thought of tomorrow should hamper today's light ..
and the smile which spreads the light should glow forever..

Come what may tomorrow..:)))))))))))

Thank you ..M.

Sneha

I last met Sneha in a mall at a fixed time , after a call from her in the morning..
actually could not recognise her voice ..it was squeaky and she attributed it to bronchitis..
the first look we had at each other i could hardly stop making a sound ..she has changed ..i meant not physically ..she was the same tall girl but what has happened here was some thing different..

There was no smile on her face ..the bright energy which she would ooze out was missing..
she would not look at me directly into eyes ..she would not answer directly my questions as we were famous one time for having a frank talk ..she would look away..and once a pakka hyderabadi she muses at the changes in the city with wonder ..which would make me ask if Pune so far from hyd? she has no answer ..

I later came to know from some other friend that the husband had a sick sister , working MIL , and she was acting like an under maid in the house . i wondered what happened to all the love her husband was showering on her in the engagement and after marriage period..SIL had a oestersporasis ..and MIL was tooo busy to share work at home ..Is this what girls are married for ?
Every word she talk now is combined now with her facts of SIL and MIL, I ask her how is she? And she looks at me with far away eyes and says ‘Kb sleep well, this is one thing which will become a scarcity in future …And I stare at her with a blank expression …

and my friend instead of resisting it had accepted everything , leaving job , washing clothes at home , making break fast , lunch dinner ..a girl who had never had to do dishes is daily doing them now ..hard to imagine…

As far as I know Sneha was smart , active , intelligent , famous , tall , beautiful and almost every one knew her from college , she had plans for everything for the future ..she made people wonder with her insight of future ..she had friends from 3 and 4 year which made her more aware of the problems of later years ..she talked about the solutions for them ..and held every one in calss at awe..

She toiled so much for 4 years that she was placed in the 80+% group at the end of it..she 's done it in all aspects ...Actually it was like a race where she had to come first and she did ..??

After a search of one year her parents found the so called right guy ..in some software company getting some good 'K' and pretty decent to look at..what more can any one ask ..for all the plans she would make i wonder what she talked to this guy when she first met him at 22 ..In the first place did she have an idea of what to ask and what to be done ? Was she prepared for it ...i guess no one asked her that...

She got married and now the marriage is just 2 years old...there she is now with a sick family ..a 'mute' own family who are not doing anything for her well being..


I hope things go well for her in future and she gets the courage to break the shackles and live life with more gutso and energy , than she is now .

Rant

Some times you just want to rant about all the things around you ..
you want to keep complaining that this is not right , that did not go well..
you want to shout loudly ..be pert ..talk more ..and that too unnecessarily..and very strongly..fight about with every one ..
make a foolish point so strong that the person with little sense will never want to speak of it again..
howl like a animal ..rage with anger ..and finally throw something on the opposite person till it really hurts him..

...and then you will cool down.

he's done it..?

He earns so much that there is no second thought about any thing ..he gets rich fat sum to take home , a flat at madhapur , a independent house at marredpally, two cars , one for him and his wife , a child studying at hep schools , uses the latest nokia mobile which keeps altering every other day..works for 10 hrs a day...runs the whole show at home and work ..hero of the family ..
, the boss everywhere ..keeps in track of whats happening in everything..looks like he has done it.....

...but only he knows how much he misses talking to his childhood sweet heart...
...her stupid questions ..
....her smile...
.......actually just her mere presence...

....naa enna panre..??...

These are the things i do when i am getting time to surf the net , which is happening too often these days .

1. music india online
2. jikku.blogspot.com
3....actually many blogs sites..
4. forbidden archealogy
5. sdn.sap.com (very rare )..
6. dorling.blogspot.
7. googling
8. Wondering about all the things other than normal things
9. When should i leave for today
10.Drinking tea too many times
11. Exploring what-to-eat in the different outlets ?( best part )


......I think the list will keep growing...

Accept Love

Why does the heart take so much time to accept the fact that people love you , in many ways ?
Yes , there are people who are there to love you , ..:)))))


I have understood that accepting love from others and enjoying it to the fullest is the crux of being in love with life.

So love take care.

Fun tuesdays

Some times we have a 'Gambol' so called 'fun Tuesdays' just to pep up the people on the floor .To make them move from their places and smile a bit..
What i have noticed in this new company is people smile very little..Like in my previous company there was always some 'fun' going between people and there was actually no need of an external party to organize a program to activate people ..but here there is a bad need of that..
..'corporate effects'..u see..
there was no need to ask any one to accompany to cafeteria..there were always people ready for that ..but now we have to enjoy our lonely walk to the cafeteria..which is two blocks away..dammit.

humph.

i guess people don't tell that they got engaged in fear of 'nazar' na lage..
many people keep their 'alliance' relations a secret.
after all its just a small ring which might be binding them..humph...
and marriage is like a big thing..so they can trumpet it around...

To Krishna on Janmashtami

Hey Krishna ,

I don't know when it started but i have become your number one fan and today on your B'day i want to speakabout my feelings for you.I have understood your smile which is saying , you have done it before but again it 's your birthday today and i want to make it special by writing this blog.

Me knowing you has been for some time now, and when ever i see the sweet smile , i know you are having a plan .Looking at your life it is simply amazing ..from the sweet kid of your mother..to the heart beat of all the young ladies of brindavan..to the saviour of draupadi..to being the killer of kansa..being the 'natana sutradhari'..being the reason for the mahabharata..
the support for pandavas..for being the reason of smile for rukmini and satyabhama...for showing arjuna his duty..for just being you.

Thanks for being in my life and helping me in the most unimaginable situations ..for keeping up my strength when i could have sat in a corner and cried..for all those wonderful positive thoughts you have helped me into..for slowly pulling me into your train of positive energy ..
I will try to do my best ..and i want you to remember that 'I LOVE YOU'.

Tonnes of love,
KB.

STATUARY WARNING:

The Views and snaps shown in the blog could and could not be coincidental with real life ..and can be just reel life.

A Perfect drink

Today i had my first drink ..a perfect colored one ..with the perfect flavour ..in a near to perfect 'drinking glass'..can call only that.

Mirthy5

I hope Mirthy5 keeps rocking all the time..and it would be like the opinions of 5 people who live life with a jest and spirit ..sensibly and also with fun..
I hope it would bring luck to all the five..and sees us move to different horizons both personally and professionally..
I hope that the opinion of one person on one thing would open the eye of other person..
....
and not but not the least it would not be left out by any person..in the middle

Counting the good things

I wonder what we would have all done if the IT sector was not boomig and there was no concept of offshoring to india..
where would we have all been?

I would have been may be a CAD operator..Or a ICICI bank Employee in a call center(domestic of course..)..or a lecturer for the mechanical Engineering department ..
Or may be ..a teacher..a LIC agent..Or still struggling for finding that some thing..

Or may be i would have pursued my higher stuides ..
Hmmm..hummish hmm..

I think that better than cursing the long hours of work..
ITs better to look at things like this.!!

Goalless..

You are given the form to fill the goals you would like to fulfill in the coming 12 months..
The template which has been given has five options to fill..
The long term goals , the intermediate goals,annual goals on strenghts, annual goals on development needs , progress against expectations..

You have to fill the form and wonder at all the lies now you have to write in the form..
as you start off about the goals and plans the voice inside shouts and jeers at the first line
itself..
To be a senior analyst by 200....
...........learn...more...

Are all these your goals you ask yourself to get the answer a big no..


I want to travel to new places..
Learn something that satisfies my inner desire of being a singer..
Go on outdoor trips more often ..exert myself physically ..
Meet the most wonderful people ..
Spend , laugh with some interesting person..
Settle down (frightening though!!!)..Actually this is just an idea ..since we have to follow the crowd at some point ,............

,travel ,,travel and travel..

Pulse Polio Doctors

Its a lazy Sunday ....and you wake up late.
Go to the morning rounds and see the pulse polio people ..
For a change this time it is a young crowd instead of the health officers..you get a smile as they try to put one drop into the child's mouth ..and the child wriggles just in time and it falls on the ground.

They have already come 2 hours for now and you notice that they are college crowd...giggling and smiling ..it s almost lunch time now and you cant help asking them for basic things after the they have been sitting out for a half day now.
They accept quickly and come down for using the rest room ..
You know that they are 3 medicine students and now in their final year

Young people coming to house is so refreshing ..Its like going back to college days when your friends used to come down directly from college ..or just before some internal ..
they talk about their life style , their long study hours ..their anatomy classes ..(similar to shankar dada MBBS style..) their long years of study ..the pulse polio campaign started for the eradication of polio from the state..the unexpected 3 cases which have come up in vizag..the sincerity in executing their plans..the reschedule of the campaign in 14 districts ..their career plans , comparative analysis to engineers ...their advantage and disadvantage over other careers ..a complete different world they live in.

Kudos to them for taking all the pain in the work.

This had to be added..

I thought it was more influenced by Cinemas J sort of Badipanthulu J
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From: KB
Sent: Thursday, August 16, 2007 4:34 PMTo: M
Subject: RE: Hellova

madhu ..bravo Its very fine ..
Its really good and its like a documentarty which comes in TV about all those dev works etc., ..
I dont think any thing more is needed in this ....
:-)..Cal you soon..
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From: M
Sent: Thursday, August 16, 2007 4:26 PM
To: KB
Subject: RE: Hellova

Need ur inputs……..

My first experiment

Gauri was a social worker moving across villages to spread the awareness of literacy and social responsibilities. She was very expressive and was able to draw the villagers with her practical and useful talks. She started a night school. And many farmers and workers started attending it.
Shankar was from a poor family depending only on the farm he owned and he was struggling to get a two square meal for his family. He had two daughters and he was sending them to a nearby government school. He knew the importance of education and though he never had an opportunity to study, he did not want his daughters to be like him.
When Gauri started the school he was the happiest person as it was a blessing in disguise for him to be educated. He started attending the night classes conducted by gauri and was even convincing his wife to come with him. He slowly started with letters and gradually was improving.
Gauri was now overwhelmed at the response received from the villagers and was determinant to take them to the next level of village welfare.
As usual the heads of the village were seeing it as a threat for them and tried to stop Gauri and her initiatives.
But she was not the one to back off; she went to the district collector with all the details and explained to him the conditions that prevailed in the village.
He said that as the heads were against it, if he receives a petition from the villagers, he would be able to help them out.
She had come back to village and put forth her view of submitting a petition. Some villagers were afraid that by getting involved with the petition, they would come in the bad books of the village heads and were not willing to take part in it.
Some of them were brave enough and had faith in her and they started signing in the petition paper. It was Shankar's turn and as he was closely associated with the village head, it required lot of courage to accept and then stand by the conviction given by her.
He then gave his thumb sign on the paper.Gauri knew his association with the village head and was surprised to see Shankar involving himself in this act.
He got a pat on his back. “That’s wonderful!” she exclaimed. “A thumb made the difference.” His pained smile said it all. He so wanted to sign in letters and not by thumb impression. He was determined that that in the next few weeks he would learn to spell his name and start using it as signature.


From: KB
Sent: Thursday, August 16, 2007 2:50 PM
To: M
Subject: RE: Hellova


:-) a big smile...
aaj ka din ban gaya..
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From: M
Sent: Thursday, August 16, 2007 2:44 PM
To: KB
Subject: RE: Hellova

No…….Not at all……

I was just going through a blog which gave one sentence and asked the bloggers to weave a story around it….

And just see the imagination which runs on a human mind and brings out even the minute details about the character…Really AmaZing
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From: K B
Sent: Thursday, August 16, 2007 2:43 PM
To: MSubject:
RE: Hellova



thank you madhu..
but dont you think its just run of the mill kind of story..

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From: M
Sent: Thursday, August 16, 2007 2:37 PMTo: KB
Subject: RE: Hellova

“EXCELLENT”………I could not find a better word than this to describe it J

From: KB
Sent: Thursday, August 16, 2007 2:01 PM
To: M Subject: RE: Hellova

He was very precise and articulate.he planned everything and executed them to the end..
His calender was scheduled all the week and the whole of next week..And for the colleagues he was the 'perfectionist' and the BOSS
though he smiled and talked too.. everyone wondered what his next move would be ..
After slogging for almost a year he got the break through he wanted ...a Pat on the back by his boss ..the much need ed hike ..a company flat... all ..
..3 years in a row without going home this was the longest period of staying away from home ..
he could not leave his work for long and promised to stay a week at home..
things have undergone a sea change at home ..his parents aged more than he imagined ..and his sister looked at him with aloof eyes..
it was time to make some commitments they told him..and as a surprise move they went to meet a girl ..
..It was a pleasant meeting..and he actually wanted to be at longer time at home..he wanted to call and make some moves ..which surprised their parents ..and asked him to take some time in thinking further ..
the girl waits for his call with stars in eyes because she knows she has just met a nice person..
...
he went back and got absorbed again in his work..all the right moves ..and as a surprise the company closes down..and many lose thier jobs ..he being a part of it..
years roll by..and he comes back to India for final settling..
..and when he stops by a book shop ..he bumps into her ..
though she looked a bit older (of course ..!!) ..she almost was the same..
he cannot stop now and goes to talk to her..and she recognizes his voice from an old memory bell..
she is married and has a 10 yr old son ..

she listens to his glories at work ..his old battles ..his way down and up ..
..his new company..his position ..and all..
his pained smile gave it all off..


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Subject: Hellova
Good Morning …..

Can u weave a short story around these sentences?

“He got a pat on his back. “That’s wonderful!” she exclaimed. “A thumb made the difference.” His pained smile said it all.”

Happy Story writing J

how?

I wonder how to manage to keep a smile and a positive thought always on mind?

Stickers

U have the habit of cheating people and playing with their inner feelings..he shouts at you..u are taken aback by his sudden blurting and wonder from how many days has he been harbouring this inside him..or may be you knew it would come out one day..

He had stuck to you all the time ..right from the day he spoke first..enquiring about some one and talking on the pretext of some silly reason..you never imagined he would remember every single detail of the conversation between you ..details to the core of how the train stopped at one place and you would get down at it..how many times you had coffeee ..how many people were actually trying to woo you at that time..the attempts they were making to come close..the color of the dress when you got into the train ..

People knew he was behaving in this strange fashion just to impress you at all times ..from the quite guy how was barely audible at times he has come out to be a talkative person ..and learns to show ..which brings a smile on many faces ..

for you he was just there ..talking all the times , irritating you many times ..there were heated arguments all the time ..about his intrusion..

Always a morning mail..
a call everyday..one in the morning ..one at night..
and if it happened that there is some special event then you are driven mad that day..
you vent all your feeling on him some times ..because he just happens to be there ..

And there is deep sign that these people give when they see you..and they keep repeating the fact that 'people whom you choose will be the luckiest ones' on the planet earth..and when ever it happens that you say no to some party ..there is this famous dialogue 'who has seen the future'..
and may be the next time i meet you ' you might get engaged also'
God if it was so easy dont you think it would have happened already..

and after a few years every thing is so muddled up ..that you feel you had better company at least a few days at a time.. in return for all the stickers.

M & Week Ends

one week end at the Kalahasti..
One week end at tirupathi..
One week end seeing a nearby fort..
One week end at kalakshetra..
..And common to all week ends is a new-release movie..
..and many week ends shopping ..or orkuting...
..Or buying groceries ..or just a walk in the neighbourhood..
..one week end coming home..some days just sitting quiet..
...some times voice-mailing a room mate in US..
....a call almost everyday at EOD to 'kb'..
...This is how M spends her week-ends .....

'COMMIT' "men" t..s

When you are single ..and may be of the age to jump the line and make some commitments..we see the commitment as some thing that gives us satisfaction..a person to whom we can relax and tell everything..talk ..talk and more talk..a honest and ready listener.....all pretty things .

Now i am wondering if all the 'commitments' we see around us are really 'COMMIT' ments ?!!

Finally when people make that move ..they find themselves as if its some thing one has to hide from ..their ideas ..and natural reactions get repressed may be ..from the ridicule one faces quite often ..or may be because people always expect a person to be right on everything..Always..i think this is one thing that stresses out people for what they are from..

Like We often come across People At work..especially Married People ..who keep talking the whole day ..because they dont get much of a chance to talk at home..they just blurt out everything at work..and this topic could be from Problems at home ..to Child birth ..or their life before marriage..they talk talk talk..and their mobile keeps ringing the whole day..continuation of yesterday nights fights and discussions may be..

Like i once met a 'Lecher' (can only call That !!) whom once i met sensed that some thing was wrong ..and kept a bit aloof and a very formal attitude....Later on one lady told that he has been quite a Cad with her (there is always a chance to report ) but the lady had a taste of it some how when she least expected it..and he went on to tell her about all his pre-martial affairs ..his view of females..these things may be are common to many men ..but some fools cant just keep them inside them....He went even to the extent of telling his live-in relationship .....Of course he was an exceptional case..

And there are some people who cant help being the 'Quite-a-gentleman' with ladies at work..
they say the sweetest things ..give their best smiles ..are always so 'Shweet' that overtime if you smile back..done!!! They slowly take the liberty of commenting and saying 'Nice shirt ' or 'whats spl today'..little comments which have no harm and if you see with normal eyes have no inner meaning also..but the 'inner' meaning comes out slowly ..at the least expected of time ...

I dont mean to classify all men into one category or that people always mean 'something else'
..but these things are always around the corner .

Spending some time with a single person is like going for them to good old days ..days when you still had plans for everything ...a taste like special coffee from normal..

to be contd..

Streets of Calcutta.

As you sit in cab and look outside through the wet window ..the rain drops sticking to the pain ..till one drop is forced to come down and ..mix with another ..just to trickle down..thoughts go to the time when it continuously rained for 6 days in Calcutta...

I think no city can match Calcutta in its vastness in terms of length and breadth of the place..and communication there minus the metro would have been like hell ..i know it because i went through the hell for some time..Its like a big pipe from your purse goes directly into the pocket of the taxi drivers there..Pretty costly business too..

And the thoughts go to city center, the rickshaws, the sweet shops , the people with round faces ..the aloo curry there ( yucckkk..), the sticky weather , IBM, BCS building..Short stint in Rajahath..the long empty road with zero communication..and a pair of laughing , interesting, appraising brown-black eyes ...

The first time I saw AM was ....hmm..how to put it...was little impactive.. .The first few days i was in the organization we didn't know our mutual existence..until some one told that there was some one from south ..And that's how our first meeting in 'VENUS' happened ..and i met a pair of lively , bright ..in fact 'always laughing' eyes .. ....

Apart from that he had the same male characteristics like any other..and when it was time for me to leave the place..we finally went to a south restaurant ..and then to the museum..
and just had walk on Sunday in the markets there ..like the non-locals who don't belong to the place normally move around to kill and enjoy time in a new place ..just walking , talking in the streets of Calcutta..looking at an antique house at a corner....Actually you find many old houses to see in Calcutta.. or a typical bengali 'bahu' at the other...the 'fish' market there.... the flowers just beside the fish market....the rickshaw wallas who run with the rickshaw(inhuman!!!) ...the normal rickshaws where you can take a ride for 4 to 5 rupees..(That's too inhuman!!!) but you find many like that there..The cheap jewellery shops where me and my cousin one day almost took all the new models for a very nominal sum..(you can bargain like hell!!) ...the 'moorties' made from clay...Leather goods and all...quite artistic slow kind of people..who have no hurry for any thing...

..And it was the last time i took the metro from jadhavpur to Sheela market..

.....and it was the last time i saw of them ..and him...

.......and this Southie came back to South for Good..

Last day of July

Last day of July is always calm...When it was January you thought as of August was looong after some time ..and the coming of it would be like eternity..

Now as the last moments of July wither away you cannot but think that time has been running quite fast indeed ..it was like yesterday on the night of December you had a cock tail and said cheers to the coming time..now the time is passing..and it looks like things are going to be more tough than before..

When you have a question in mind for which there seems to be no answer ..and as you see life through all ups and downs..you can only sing..

"Hazaron khwahishein Aisi Ki har khwahish Pe Dum nikale"

And on the lighter note to the past six months ..

"You thought you have beaten me..but just look at where you are now.."

Aunty Math Kaho naa..

From monday to friday you wear chudidaars, jeans , kurtis...all stuff but keeping looking at people wearing sarees at work admiring if they look good.....

And one saturday you decide to wear to family get together..actually this idea comes from not able to decide which chudidaar to wear..

you know people would be surprised to see you in a casual saree ..but you are not actually ready for it....

Plethora of comments :
Mom's Sis : Ohh..she looks like Rani..to be sure..
Sarcastic uncle : Oh...Did she wrap the saree or did she Tie saree..>???But all the same he is getting reminded of his sis when young ..my mom being his one time favourite..
Younger Mama : Its like Rani coming in the younger version..
Akka : Giving gyan on the nuances of tieing the saree..
The steps should come to the side of right leg..so that they ultimately move to middle...
and the steps should spread a little so that they look good..
Akka's Children :Aunty..Aunty.. ( And me saying in filmy style : Aunty Math kaho naa...;-))
Anna's : Looks like pinni..but not that Too..(giving a wink)

And when we move from my saree. they are quite inquisitive to know why i had been missing from family get together for some time now..especially my uncle famous for his 'Intelligent' question and my 'Round-about' answers...We bait each other and i Tell only what i want to tell..and he tries to pull all from me ..

My bavagaru comes ..and we are happy to see each other after some time and he compares me with the 'school' bhavani with glasses ,battifying telugu poems..

..and we smile at each other..

People

you see him in the crowd ..and know him from some where ..his eyes are friendly and know that u met him from some where ..

He waits till you complete your call and when he says your complete name it surprises you more..then you remember that he was from your old company..the place which almost made you to be what you are..

and you cannot help thinking of all the people which you were associated in that period..
the place where people approached you because they thought you had a bubbly laugh ..your friendly ness which made you famous ..
...all the things that people say when they are in love with you..
.......you have the best smile ..
........you are the most honest person i have met....
.........you have wonderful way of putting things.....
..........you look life in the best way....
.............and being with you is the Best!!!!!

Time moves by ...some things people do irritate you so much that there is no forgiving..and you maintain your distance..

some people just stick ed to you
..some said you were most tricky of all they met..
They came back but never took back their words..
some just stuck on to you even though you said they disgust ..
They thought it is the only way to be with you ..take all your moodiness, your anger,your attitude and all ..and it makes you wonder WHY?

Another day

With every day they say we are more rich in life..
my question is how ?

Rhythm Divine

.After all the wrong tunes of the past you wanted a rhythmic song now..
a song which you can hum for some time..a song which does not become a old favourite..and which will have its place at all times..

you take a step and look around..

I want to ask you ..is this a duet or a monologue..?
I would like you to chirp in..but your aloof eyes frighten me..
Maybe its best that we move with the wind ..and take the scent of the present..
May be ..after all we should have a sonnet..
Some thing that rhymes and make people chime ..
Something that is divine ..
..a rhythm that is divine..
Dear , do you also want the same..??

Your Sweet hum.

Wishful thinking

Dearest ,

When you sent me your pic on the bike ..little did you imagine the stories i would build around it.
When i was in college a friend of mine had a friend who was a boy..and he had a bike..A splendor which took them daily and some times on week ends to different locations...

Now dear I know we are not so young to bikee around like coleggites but sweety there are so many places we can go around ..like the little trekking path i found .. ..temple road where we could sit on the pavement..The green valley road ....Or..the the curve which i see daily from my cab ..or the beautiful shimoga hills where there seems to be only color 'Green..

Life is running out darling, make it fast.

Always missing you.
Yours.

A long story..

Most of the thoughts of the mind surface up when you are just falling into a sleep..a small nap of the afternoon..or the serious sleep of the night..these are the times when all the issues which have been long ago hidden surface up..

these could be the people whom you have met long ago..a school friends comment about you..a little joke ..or the time when you fell from the cycle at a turn..u knew you would fall at that point some time and were always careful riding there until one reckless moment just gives it ..
or..or some little crush you had for some one ..his face and smile..Ammas opinion about you ..smile of a little cousin who comes up to you..or the always famous stories of 'Little meetings your people arranged for you in the hunt of the 'right' person....

Now these are going to be series of posts which you need to check out ..from time to time..

Young and fresh:

you don't understand the impact of what was in store for you..
actually you did not give it much of a thought..except that 'Oh people do get married ..but the fact that marriage is about bonding with a person for the whole life..never occurs to you..

Mom and dad feel as if the whole world is coming upon them as even they are new to it..The idea about some one coming to meet their little girl and deciding upon their future keeps them in a frenzy of 'Responsible ' parents ....making them to look a bit older than the normal self....

You wear a Saree which is quite a feat as u come under the category of running about the place with a salwar often ..the pleats are placed at the right place quite painfully after a trial of two three times..:)..and mother as usual thinks you are the best ..
You adjust your glasses..and coming out of the room is quite a feat..you don't know what the front room where you normally 'lazy' out in front of the TV has in store for you..you are so nervous that it is difficult to smile..
Thinking of those days..Gosh days when you were so young..
..and the most embarrassing of all is when people actually force us to talk in private..now coming to it..what can people who are absolutely stranger s except for a few hours can have to talk ..and how will they decide on what is good and what is best for them in a ashort while and coming to it the person whom you meet naturally would keep the best front even though he may be a moody idiot otherwise....



I would relate my first 'shooting' as most of them would like to call in detail now...:-

It was the first proposal and don't remember how it came about exactly..the guy was from Australia and had permanent PR over there ..he was some thing into networking....and was a 6 years older to me..

Both my aunts my mom's sisters were called to this event on a emergency basis..

He came with his father ,mother and sat on deewan..My aunt was later telling that he was keenly observing my mother just to guess if i would be as smart as her..:)..
And when i came into the hall he was rubbing his legs ..nervous i guess..
And after the farce of asking my name..Biggest joke of all in such events..his father was telling something for which my father was over enthusiastically nodding...after a few Mts if grazing every where except the person concerned..
.i suddenly asked if we could talk...Which caught every body unaware..and my father raised his eyebrows..at my sudden request..

my people were afraid i would blurt some thing unusual..and abrupt..

:-) ..I wanted to know if i was he had plans of settling down there or her..a question which now i think is something which only destiny can decide..

People : Part-2
The saddest part of the whole thing is when people call you to 'convince' on the person..
..they have not met him..no idea about what i actually want to see in the partner..
and they give me long speech on the 'why i should go for him'...

My little gyan for such people .." Such things happen only when both the people think they
can go for it ..and it is convincing for them that they can bare each other'..Atleast in this time ..where people have seen the world..without mutual respect and attaraction ..things cannot go further..'


And this is the process which was followed for selecting the right person..



But there have been people who have met their 'Soul mates' in the similar fashion...

you wonder what the guy is actually thinking about you..
your glasses which you know were pretty thick covering your eyes..and your stiffness around the place walking in the saree.. my awkwardness..
...
My experiences in all this search for the right person has made put me in many kind of funny and strange situations ..which i Will put down some day..and taught me and the people around me to look at people and the way they talk more carefully..

hmmmmm.....and the whole discussion that goes when the episode is finished...
and looking into the pooja room you ask God is he the right person..
..and you know the answer in a few days...
'all the wrong ones before the right ones'...and another experience adds by...

Southie...

You see her and you know she is from south....


Its the simplicity which tells everything...and one thing no southie misses is a bindi or bottu....



A saree some times ..and almost always a chuddaar...



An expression which is sincere..and looong

To be or not to be........

The messenger list shows him ..you never know whether to say hi or not..its always the question that looks up at you..to be or not to be..

To be..it was always the thing you wanted..always..deep down you never wanted it to end like that ..but it had right on you r face..slapping you across....you never could absorb it but it had happened ..there is no denying..it has...

To not to be..you promised yourself you will never turn back..you had promised your dear ones the same too..why are promises so hard to keep?they are really....it is just easy to break just by saying hello..the excitement always in seeing the Id ..why did it not die you ask yourself ..
after all ..and again ..

To be or not to be is a question?

We are different...

This was new thing to us..The loneliness and calm wrapping around us..
Actually we are very different people ..i the simple and straight..and u always searching for the hottest in the crowd..i know what you are looking for..and help you in many ways in finding your 'type' as you like to call..

you show your place which for a bachelor is quite neat..cant help admire the place..
And when we finally settle down before the system and explore..suddenly you relax and half sleep playing some Punjabi song..telling me the meaning of the lyric..

We laugh about all the odd things ..and the passing time..the weird world and their expressions..We forget we are very different..And we both doze off into a sleep slumber ..you into your world and me into mine..

Its so different to make tea in a bachelor's room..there are just two cups ..3 spoons ..2 plates..one extra for a visitor....
U come from behind and say its quite good ..even though i know its kind of watery ..
you smile and i cant help smile back..We know each other too well to talk...

Change

You have seen it while being built..the crane slowly carrying the load from one point to another..replying and listening to the repeated queries from the customer... you watch the crane and some one tells ..an MNC's is building a new block..actually four blocks..

Years roll by ..you change jobs ..learn new things..join some company ..change..change..change..


After all the running one fine day you find yourself in the cafeteria trying to capture from your mobile the new company's reflection in the glass panes of the old company...
:)

Ohh..My card

You remember the last time you went for a shopping spree and vowed you will not spend so much on something ssoo trivial..It was exactly six months back..the sign you gave when you saw the debits from your accounts ...they gave a couple of sleepless nights for sure...

As you walk through the bazaar and resolutely promise yourself ...not to get tempted to the frilly skirt or the designer shirt .. walk into a shop which you heard has stuff might cheap.. looking through everything you cant decide on anything..except for the skirt in the window..you slowly go there and look at the tag ..ohh..just for this time you say ..and swoooosh the promise is broken ..and you go berserk ..running from one shop to another ..

oh just for the marriage of a cousin who might not have planned wardrobe for himself as yet..
Oh just for this sake ..this model might not be there again..
oh this color ..it just suits me right..
oh..this cut its beautiful..
Oh this night gown comes down so well..
Oh..This shirt has the right fit..

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Oh my debit card..it might break soon with all the swipes...

That one minute..

You have waited for it with your fingers crossed and breathing tight..At last of all odds you see the papers in your hand..The story has passed the climax and you take a deep breath.. the many fears which have been haunting you for some time can be pushed back ..u turn back and give them a push..wondering is it the last you will see of them..Praying a strong vote of thanks to the DUE person..after all its his Game..:)

the time is coming near for it after all..all the plans and the stars surfacing slowly ..
and suddenly There is the call from the number you least expect..you wonder why are they calling you..and you suck the breath for a second and all the thoughts come rushing out..all the improbabilities, unexpected bumps,new complexities ..everything and you cannot but curse yourself for being too elated..And if anyone can understand they will know the breathlessness..
U take the call and find its nothing but..
friendly gesture and you smile at it... the stage looks Perfect..

Darling i know i am eating you..Ha ha..

Blindness

You knew it all the way ..the thing that is so obvious ..right in front of the eyes..it was there before you... moving about..ignoring you..

You ignore it ..trying to see only what you want t see.. trying to smile ....taking only what you want to take..

your best friends and people tell to ignore it....and you promise loudly that this is the last straw and you are done with it..actually you are..you are done with it almost ..you want to look back with closed eyes ..ignore everything ..move awayy..give your best smile tell everyone we deserve better ..

you meet some old pals ..Look best ..talk more than necessary ..allow some one to flirt.. ..give an gay laugh ..with a wink in the eye ..go home and
When you sleep at night and stop acting blind ..you know its just staring at you..and you close your eyes.

Bland

There are times when the days just roll .Not that you want them like that ,its just that you cant do much to change them.Its like drinking some thing which is tasteless ..,insipid.
You just sign over and try to count the most exciting times just to give a :) and all the flashes just pop over..ha ha..the good times ...what to say..the thrill of the moment , the carefree laughter ... ahh the fun..

College fete and festivals were a big thing for us in 6 and 7 sem..mostly because we were bored of seeeing the same old people from college and want to have a taste of some thing exciting..
So there we were three girls in the 'Shruti' fest ..exploring the campus..
and here was a change from every other festival..being a more 'girly' kind of gang we did not dare do much dancing at any of the other places just to be careful from the falling guys ..too dangerous ..but here was a rope which separated both the parties..

Once the music started .. we joined the female crowd and i call it to this day.."The Day".Gosh how we danced not only us but the whole female population ..it was really awesome ..and after some time the guys from other side just stopped their dance ..may be because the energy from other side was just too much..it was great dancing in the open air to the fullest..Actually 'Jee bhar ke'

Hmm...So that's it ..i call it the most exciting thing to this day..there are many more but this is the 'Numero Uno'
I Know darling its not funny but as you see 'Mahatmas' when they write definitely cant plan what comes out from their fingers..HA HA