Quite strange

A strange thing happened today. Some time back i was reading a blog called lalitha larking .It was quite some time back.. a year or two or more maybe.It was quite a different blog and for the first time i read Telugu poetry and some very interesting posts there. And after sometime i came to know that the blogger is no more.This was all sometime back like last year or something.
I was doing dishes and suddenly the word 'Lalitha larking' just passed in my mind. and I remembered from where I ended up into that blog.And see what I read here.
Somehow i cannot copy the link! .so go here !
www.withinandwithout.com/2011/08/parrot-for-lali.

Quite strange isn't it! Somehow we all end up always thinking of people who are not there around us.Some time about dad ,then his dad and then his grandfather.I never met his grandfather but from what I heard about him he made quite a impression on me.And my grandfather he passed away when i was one year old.It seems when i was born he showed me to neighbours like he got some big prize.Its like i know all of them personally. People dont realize the value of something as long as they have them.

There is some thing about beautiful hands and me..
I get engrossed in them...
A fair hand with beautiful nail paint..They seem to speak a language. They seem to be confident and arrogant. Stubborn and self contained...

The heart says to Go!

And then yesterdays shine is clouded by todays glum. Some times when I think i wonder is it worth it? I mean all this running after jobs and places.... and so after some very good thinking I have decided to quit in mid september which gives me 15 days to pack up and go and 15 days notice to the employer. ..I simply cannot stay without people and really its not worth it. I get lonely/depressed and start wondering again and again on the same things....! and for now the mind says to go...

..hoping that life is as planned and everything is fine at the end.
..we enter the fourth year of our marriage.Dont ask me what happened for 3 years...on normal lines I would have thought ..oh they finished 3 years and looks like no sign of ..ahem..ahem...But yes 3 years can happen without ...hmm....Well we finished 3 years in our life and well..3 years passed us.We kept looking at them and they seem to ignore us...we were there right at its heels for some attention but ..it had no time for us.When 3 years was so eventful in so many ways ..how would the coming time be?
..It passed by our heels and we dont seem to notice it...or did it pass and we didnt notice it.How did it pass by the way? It passed us ..or we passed it.My head's in a dizzy.Good that I tend to forget anniversary's...

..and then I keep peeping into mirror.I think just to assure some presence in the house and like hubby..I sit at one place with the laptop on my legs and keep on surfing the net..so unlike me.Fashion blogs..locations..work..man I dont very like it.

For a change I dont know why I felt very rested today.Maybe the effect of last weeks health issues have gone.Felt at peace at work and wished life would be like this.At peace...and when ever I get this feeling I move from the place.:-)

DIY

DIY.Thats the new mantra of life. what ever it is you have to DIY. ..and chanting like this I complete 2 weeks of my stay alone.Am i enjoying it? Ahem..To tell the truth I am enjoying only my driving..everything else is crap. I keep thinking and dreaming of all the ways to get to hubby.But just like last time I have only one option. Leave the job and Go.