..well i am intending to write some snippets of things which might not be anything but just a useless banter.So today saw us trying to go out of the room somewhere just to see life outside the Hotel. So after an after thought for a movie we finally ended up going to Irvine spectrum , a mall very near to our place. We were just roaming around and I was soaking up the fashion of the people around me when we bumped into hubby's friends. As usual is the case, they were recently married and coochey coo in love kind of talk. We saw the roundabout ride and I wanted to go on it since the lat time in Minneapolis i ended up just taking pictures of it. So there we were two girls on the tigers and elephants happily going on a ride with 2 and 3 year olds, they taking a kind of pride seeing us all excited and themselves composed with their mommies and daddies. So after the three dollar ride we just moved about and the smart people that we people are, they finally managed to take us to walmart though actually we did not have anything to buy.

They shopped for 2 solid hours. I remember the last time in MN when some one like this took us to the Walmart we finished shopping in 20 minutes.Actually they did not want to get the message even though I kind of signaled them to finish the shopping early.

the good things today : went for my 20 minute walk. Went to mall and saw things which i did not see before. Saw the most fashionable people.

Not so nice things: had to spend so much time @ walmart.Got disappointed in his friends.

..I can only say that laptop and face book are growing too much on me. Too many updates, too many pics and too much actually show off from many .Hubby says i log in too many times. The empty hours are making me do that.Its been just 15 days since i came here.

I wonder what would be my last thoughts before the soul leaves the body. If I will see some small snippets of life gone by or will it will be a passage down a dark lane. I think the soul would leave the body with a great effort trying its way to work things out till the last minute but when it knows it has to leave it will just leave it in a micro second since its done anyway and it would not like to loose more time than needed.And then it would just hop round a little bit with its new found freedom.Just roaming around places and people it could not be with.

I wonder what I would see. May be a glimpse of childhood.Me talking gibberish in childhood with mom and dad. They listening and laughing.Dad taking me for scooter rides when i would cry. mom combing my hair.me running to catch the school van in front of a friends house.Cycling down the roads. Laughing with aunts.Fighting with brother.Me crying because teacher hit brother.Singing.Falling in love.Heart break.OOPs. Its been a long journey.

Arre Yaar! I am tired.

Yes I am. Really tired. Looking back now we had an almost perfect setting in Minneapolis. Nice house, good utilities, friendly neighbours who would respond to a call.A very bad but fast car.Some comforts which we got with some trouble. An addition i managed to get a job. A fairly good one.Not well fetching but OK for the time being.What did I do to loose all that?Did i deserve that kind of relocation where i sweat to sell everything and go. Its still like yesterday.I remember the day when it was my birthday and I was grand 30 years.Alone in an almost empty house sleeping on the floor.I asked one neighbour of mine to take some pics just to record some moments of the day. no grand party or some get together or some cake cutting or some outing some thing ..but i need to solace myself that things are better than the previous year when i lost the most important person in life.

So we move back to India, to sweaty places and struggle to relocate and move within the place.Again setting up the home and struggle.New job, new people, new company to work, new politics. All against me. only thing is this time i find a job quickly , thanks to some thing called 'recession is over'. its not even 10 months down the lane and there i am again moving things out. Again.

I am back to being jobless and bore dome. Back to staring out of the window.Calls to home in the morning.Something to talk and nothing much to say actually.I am tired of this relocating business.frankly.between countries.Only nice thing in this whole business was we repaid kalyan's loans from the past.At least i am thinking its because of me and my small jobs.My moving and my moving jobs.I am tired.