Chenai Trip.

So I came to chennai on the morning of 25 December with the train running 20 mts late and we reached home at 10 in the morning.we felt that it would be better to take a taxi instead of haggling with the rowdy chennai auto walas. its the same anyway with a hole of 250 early in the morning.
There is some relief in being with Hd alone far from every ones eyes and we getting the privacy we need ;). Ask me and i would say that all married couples should be left alone in the first year and if they lucky then they might be getting the time needed for everything.
Hd was running late to work so had to rush up in a hurry. The house was in a big mess and needed 3 hours of cleaning , with washing the dishes, clothes, sweeping the house , cleaning bathrooms . I don't know if white flooring is a boon or curse as we can see the smallest hair so clearly that one can't rest in peace until it is cleared .I almost was tired and expected to get the much needed sleep after almost no sleep in the side upper berth but no luck . There was a time when train journeys were much awaited and fun to take , but after the the side middle berths in trains it has kind of become like a cubby hole where 9 people are forced to sit and look at each other faces , even though you avoid it a 100 times . I had a stupid women's era in hand and didn't know whether to call the stories written in them as stories , they stop so abruptly . and for the first time i thought i missed some thing and checked if the story has been continued some where but no. I stood in the shop for 15 mts on deciding to buy some book for the journey but i just could not decide on any thing and came back sending mom to get some thing and she bought Women's era. :) She is still in the era when Womens era was a good book , and i remember the time when we as kids went to Bellary for a visit to some aunts place , mom painfully copied all the recipes from the magazine into a book in neat hand writing . She till refers to that book for doing aloo capsicum curry , a specialty of hers .

After the dinner when i got into the upper side berth there was no place to lift the water bottle and drink leave alone sit for some time. I some times think laloo with his entire family should be made to travel in side upper berths and made to feel the pain and mind you it does not come cheap , its a good 500 rs .

I think i wll never like chennai , tried truly to find out one good point but found actually none . The attitude of the people or rather say recruiters is really appaling .How do you expect some one to work for quite a less amount for what they are getting already ? and why the talk about 'what would happen if you are layed off from the current company ? If he was not an old man , god swearing i would have really blasted him right there ? You guys want the work , and then you want the 'Quality work' , and then you want new products idea from us and you miserly idiots dont care for the employee right? Ok sir we will see the end of this all!!! ..and more than all this i have been kind of used to luxurious life style before marriage .Taking a cab from one place to another , and using the car when going with the family , ..and now finally i told hd that i cannot sit on the back of the bike in the chennai traffic. the day we tried to go out , we were stuck in some rally by communist party and the way the cab fellow honked at us was enough to wake the dead up.My temp increased by another 5 degrees. and the house we have taken is quite faar from the main road and even to get medicines we need to go a 15 mts drive on a muddy road ..and the rent for the flat , even though we are staying so away from main road is 8,000. .comparing the same to hyd , the flat rent is 8000 in the center of the city , where you have to just walk a furlong to reach a medical shop.Tried to check for a flat near egmore and the rent amt sent us into a heart attack mode--it was a whooping 28000..:/.

All the travelling , sleeping on uneven bed , change in the water , climate has taken a toll on me and 2 days have been spent in dragging myself from the kitchen to the the painful bed.It has left me exhausted ..so went to the doctor finally today and he advised me to take an injection for speed recovery .its like that dialogue from movie ' maine injection dediya hain, ab saab kuch theek hojayega'..anyways ..taking the bus again at 8 today..

The week end saw me going to a bridal function of one of the second cousins of Hd.The relationship even to Hd was so distant that it was very hard to connect them to him.The Bride was Hd' s grandmother's (senior MIL's) seventh brother's third daughter.Senior MIL's family was interesting and so confusing that it was hard to know who -was-who.She has 7 sisters and 6 brothers or could be reverse 7 brothers and 6 sisters, she being the oldest of them all and in a grand age of 83 years and the surprising fact was none of the sisters came for our marriage , which disappointed her a lot.She wanted to see them all once in this marriage and so there we were three ladies one in her 80+ another in her 50 +,me the last and the FIL.

Finally I got a chance to wear the crape pink saree which was bought some 4 years back when one of my cousins was getting married and though it was not actually my style to wear a pearl set and would have preferred any gold set other wise , MIL asked saying that it would look good and also gave pearl bangles.:/....not my style at all..but well.My mom if she had seen me would give a happy laugh , that i am pearl bangles (for some one who would not wear bangles at all ).Some how pearls kind of give a corporate dinner look and they better suit when you are going to a formal dinner some where.
On reaching there one thing which really stuck me was that all Senior MIL's family almost looked alike . All were tall , had loud voices , long faces , all the ladies had fair skin , all were old , had problems with their back and legs ,even in getting fat they were maintaining uniformity .but Senior MIL was the tallest of them all for sure .She stands 5 8 i guess.one thing i always wondered was from where did Hd get his long face since both MIL and FIL had narrow faces only , The seeds lied here .

Prude Gossip.

It doesn't matter the way they put some things across..whether its gentle or rude or coveted or prudish or ..any types..the people around can send messages in aa 1000 ways and if it none of their business then they can be all the more interested in the same . the first few months of a marriage can be the toughest in any one life..and I can slap-a-spit on all who picture the few months as rosy , cozy and oooh so romantic. well it can be true if there is no ..i mean absolutely no-interference from the in laws.But people have noses to poke around and most of all at places where they can generate a good gossip . And God help us on the day when you hear that gossip in a direct question. I mean they can put it so innocently before us , that you can gape at it for some time and depends on your smartness of how quickly you can react back. Hd's cousin came to india today and when talking on a friendly note asked me simply : Oh i thought you were calling from your mom's place ..well i am surprised you are at my brothers place.So this is what the MIL senior talks on my back.


..the girl never stays her..she is always running around to her mom place ..she does not do any work at home ..and she is so silent..' i guess it might be running like this.
I tell you what there can be no place on this earth where you can be treated like a princess except at home and that's a fact.Well to speak plainly i was stupid and dumb that icoul dnot react to thast statement quickly ..i might have retorted back saying something sweet and sharp..but well gaping at things is what i am doing right now...but wait till i get a second chance you dumb idiot ..i can also show how words can cut through.!

?

I wonder which stage is the worst one..being in a company and wondering when be get sacked for lack of projects or having no job at all? :P

When i read my poor blog i some how don't like it .Not because i have become a married aunty now but because i don't know why i lost that 'ZZZing' thing in this blogging stuff.For one thing i stopped enjoying little things in life.I don't know why.Before marriage ..hmm..dont know how to put it but there was some thing which i find suddenly missing now.What exactly is it..I try to think and cannot place my finger on it now.Humour? Anticipation?? what is it exactly ?I know every persons story is different and i married neither for money nor for status.I married just because i thought Hd was a decent guy .Decent and pleasing.Well behaved.No-highfunda-attitude.and all simple things.No quick change of tempers .No i-know-u-have-to-listen-to-me.
All neat things..but all these things are just like ..mirror copies of my attitude.And some where in all theses travellings, sitting at the back of the bike, roaming and more roaming , right from day one of married life, the turned down offers of jobs in chennai , my previous companies issue with me, the comparisons with other people, the little health issues, stress at the work place form no project , god i think i have never been stressed so much ..the inability to quit the job ..God ! are there enough issues to think of. Well may a few more will add on.

..And the funniest thing is i have subscribed to 55666 from my mobile to get me some gyan on romance which send messages like 'Love is a gift from one's innersoul to another so that both can be whole' and i keep wondering ..when am i going to understand the real meaning of it all?

I wish I was.
I wish I was one of those people that I see in company with a smile on their lips and laughter in their eyes. Who don’t have to worry about many things at one time. Who don’t know what is actually trouble in their lives. For them life is just one passing flow from one destination to another without a break from college to a work place. Who had nothing to trouble their little souls about, who had nothing to think in the wake of night about what to do tomorrow since their nothing to do..who never had to plan their career because it has been planned for them..who had nothing much to get depressed about since u know everything has been set.

Who don’t have to worry that the clock already shows 8 o clock and cannot spend a minute more in bed.Who don’t have to worry coming out of the bath room that it is already 8 45 and they don’t have to enter sheepishly before the in-laws in the kitchen ..who don’t have to have one ounce , thread of remorse in them that they are not good enough in some things..who don’t have to listen to perfect stories of daughter inlaws..who don’t have to leave their husband in some other city ..who don’t have to talk and explain other people that they could not leave the current job as there is a recession going on around with no signs of going up in future ..who don’t have to cry some sad story to other company HR about what happened in the previous company..who don’t have to whist and look at all things gone wrong and all the missed chances in life..abbbbaaahhh..

I wish I was not like this.