Sneha

I last met Sneha in a mall at a fixed time , after a call from her in the morning..
actually could not recognise her voice ..it was squeaky and she attributed it to bronchitis..
the first look we had at each other i could hardly stop making a sound ..she has changed ..i meant not physically ..she was the same tall girl but what has happened here was some thing different..

There was no smile on her face ..the bright energy which she would ooze out was missing..
she would not look at me directly into eyes ..she would not answer directly my questions as we were famous one time for having a frank talk ..she would look away..and once a pakka hyderabadi she muses at the changes in the city with wonder ..which would make me ask if Pune so far from hyd? she has no answer ..

I later came to know from some other friend that the husband had a sick sister , working MIL , and she was acting like an under maid in the house . i wondered what happened to all the love her husband was showering on her in the engagement and after marriage period..SIL had a oestersporasis ..and MIL was tooo busy to share work at home ..Is this what girls are married for ?
Every word she talk now is combined now with her facts of SIL and MIL, I ask her how is she? And she looks at me with far away eyes and says ‘Kb sleep well, this is one thing which will become a scarcity in future …And I stare at her with a blank expression …

and my friend instead of resisting it had accepted everything , leaving job , washing clothes at home , making break fast , lunch dinner ..a girl who had never had to do dishes is daily doing them now ..hard to imagine…

As far as I know Sneha was smart , active , intelligent , famous , tall , beautiful and almost every one knew her from college , she had plans for everything for the future ..she made people wonder with her insight of future ..she had friends from 3 and 4 year which made her more aware of the problems of later years ..she talked about the solutions for them ..and held every one in calss at awe..

She toiled so much for 4 years that she was placed in the 80+% group at the end of it..she 's done it in all aspects ...Actually it was like a race where she had to come first and she did ..??

After a search of one year her parents found the so called right guy ..in some software company getting some good 'K' and pretty decent to look at..what more can any one ask ..for all the plans she would make i wonder what she talked to this guy when she first met him at 22 ..In the first place did she have an idea of what to ask and what to be done ? Was she prepared for it ...i guess no one asked her that...

She got married and now the marriage is just 2 years old...there she is now with a sick family ..a 'mute' own family who are not doing anything for her well being..


I hope things go well for her in future and she gets the courage to break the shackles and live life with more gutso and energy , than she is now .

Rant

Some times you just want to rant about all the things around you ..
you want to keep complaining that this is not right , that did not go well..
you want to shout loudly ..be pert ..talk more ..and that too unnecessarily..and very strongly..fight about with every one ..
make a foolish point so strong that the person with little sense will never want to speak of it again..
howl like a animal ..rage with anger ..and finally throw something on the opposite person till it really hurts him..

...and then you will cool down.

he's done it..?

He earns so much that there is no second thought about any thing ..he gets rich fat sum to take home , a flat at madhapur , a independent house at marredpally, two cars , one for him and his wife , a child studying at hep schools , uses the latest nokia mobile which keeps altering every other day..works for 10 hrs a day...runs the whole show at home and work ..hero of the family ..
, the boss everywhere ..keeps in track of whats happening in everything..looks like he has done it.....

...but only he knows how much he misses talking to his childhood sweet heart...
...her stupid questions ..
....her smile...
.......actually just her mere presence...

....naa enna panre..??...

These are the things i do when i am getting time to surf the net , which is happening too often these days .

1. music india online
2. jikku.blogspot.com
3....actually many blogs sites..
4. forbidden archealogy
5. sdn.sap.com (very rare )..
6. dorling.blogspot.
7. googling
8. Wondering about all the things other than normal things
9. When should i leave for today
10.Drinking tea too many times
11. Exploring what-to-eat in the different outlets ?( best part )


......I think the list will keep growing...

Accept Love

Why does the heart take so much time to accept the fact that people love you , in many ways ?
Yes , there are people who are there to love you , ..:)))))


I have understood that accepting love from others and enjoying it to the fullest is the crux of being in love with life.

So love take care.

Fun tuesdays

Some times we have a 'Gambol' so called 'fun Tuesdays' just to pep up the people on the floor .To make them move from their places and smile a bit..
What i have noticed in this new company is people smile very little..Like in my previous company there was always some 'fun' going between people and there was actually no need of an external party to organize a program to activate people ..but here there is a bad need of that..
..'corporate effects'..u see..
there was no need to ask any one to accompany to cafeteria..there were always people ready for that ..but now we have to enjoy our lonely walk to the cafeteria..which is two blocks away..dammit.

humph.

i guess people don't tell that they got engaged in fear of 'nazar' na lage..
many people keep their 'alliance' relations a secret.
after all its just a small ring which might be binding them..humph...
and marriage is like a big thing..so they can trumpet it around...

To Krishna on Janmashtami

Hey Krishna ,

I don't know when it started but i have become your number one fan and today on your B'day i want to speakabout my feelings for you.I have understood your smile which is saying , you have done it before but again it 's your birthday today and i want to make it special by writing this blog.

Me knowing you has been for some time now, and when ever i see the sweet smile , i know you are having a plan .Looking at your life it is simply amazing ..from the sweet kid of your mother..to the heart beat of all the young ladies of brindavan..to the saviour of draupadi..to being the killer of kansa..being the 'natana sutradhari'..being the reason for the mahabharata..
the support for pandavas..for being the reason of smile for rukmini and satyabhama...for showing arjuna his duty..for just being you.

Thanks for being in my life and helping me in the most unimaginable situations ..for keeping up my strength when i could have sat in a corner and cried..for all those wonderful positive thoughts you have helped me into..for slowly pulling me into your train of positive energy ..
I will try to do my best ..and i want you to remember that 'I LOVE YOU'.

Tonnes of love,
KB.

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The Views and snaps shown in the blog could and could not be coincidental with real life ..and can be just reel life.