You can't RUB some things

The other day we were at a religious gathering abt Sai baba. To be precise we were not part of the religious discourse but made it on time for the lunch ,lieing to every one that the bike got punctured ..(BAD) .After the lunch Hd slept straight for 2 hours living me alone in the strangers house listening to their talk abt their families and me giving all plastic smiles abt being interested. To be frank i am not the type who can listen to such talk for long and i was getting increasingly tired after one hour . Tried to wake Hd by making small sounds unsuccessfully.
All the people there had to talk abt BABA and his miracles in making things work out. I wondered if i will also turn like that when i get old , unable to sort out things , getting more dependent on the philosophies of living.Yes ladies and gentle men , i do believe in God and saibaba. But i am just not used to talking abt religion much , and to be frank i feel the baba culture is taking people away from the old ways of praying and living.
Yes it is true , our family does not pray daily to sai baba and to be frank we never had a calender of saibaba and we never depended in any small baba's for deciphering messages , trying to be baba's them selves.God is a force for me and even if you bang your head a 1000 times , what is supposed to happen will happen , nothing can avert it.
After crossing the clan after marriage , i can say one thing . VV race is the mildest and calmest race in the world.We don't rub our bhakthi in what ever we believe in so much as other clans ... and that's a fact .

She is Living..?

She is the stubborn daughter in law.She does not heed to any one and the most irking thing about her is her boldness and silence.It kind of bugs you to have her always hover around the place and almost do nothing .Well almost nothing.To be clear she is always around the place , moving form this place and that.But she is not the type who can yell at everything, well may be she can but she might not .She nods her head at all the repeatedly told facts abt the house hold , but you can see by her face she is not excited.She just exists but is not completely living.

It's not that she has any problem being there , she smiles and laughs but her empty eyes some times give away some things . She iSSS happy , wears the most eye-turning sarees , everything looks perfect , but you can say by her look that she is existing but not exactly living.

She wants to turn her head and ask her partner , why am I not living? But well she can skip it to ask at some other point.For the time being she can exist without living.

All bloggers have some kind of angst and passion in them for them to blog more.What happens when you loose that passion? I mean all these years there was a small passion, hope that ultimately i will be passionate about the marriage stuff or work .But suddenly there is a deep surge or slump like the market around me .I am just not passionate or i lost the little shreds of passion which was living in me , all the same.


I just go about things like they have always been there. There is no surprise element there .I mean i got married just a few months back in the grandest possible way!! I mean it was the grandest affair in the recent times and surprised one too many people around us . I never enjoyed the after math of the thing as i was in my in laws house .The pictures spoke a lot , but some where deep down a slump has formed and the little things which were supposed to give me happiness are drowned in that slump.

A thin rod.

We know that we are standing at the edge of a thin rod..hanging on a broken rod...wondering when the thin rod will slide over the broken rod and becomes a broken rod.....

......and when the thin rod breaks as it had to break we blame the rod maker for placing it on the broken rod. :P