...Its getting difficult to write things since there seems to be so many things inside the head , that even though i have been trying to sort the whole day , i just come out with out any thing clearly .I don't know what to call this state of mind . Hubby was telling me that since i spend some time in writing things , why don't i try to write some thing creative like Sudha murthy (!!) . I thought about it and tried to look inside myself to find a chaos space of flying thoughts and random pictures of life just gliding by at their own will . I have just no control over them and i just look at his noisy place clamored with thoughts, with incoherent second and third track talking at the same time and making it just the more mess . I just have to shut the space to be sane and go about the normal pace of life and be sane . I think the day i can do that i will be a mahatma who has tasted nirvana ( !!) . Well any way these are just the ramblings of a slightly over-leisured mind which has found a vent to throw-up.

The weather here has become just insane like my 'thought space' and its been raining for the past two days with the apartment becoming 'CCCCChilly' .The neigh borer has shared her small heater with me and it helped us survive the day .

Its funny how days can just pass by with doing nothing productive even though there are hundred ways of making myself productive . I have found a interesting read in the blog Within-without which should be read to understand the general mood of the whites in England and once you understand the mood of them , you can feel the dangerous underlying current behind all this 'white' wash.

..and and i am totally unemployed from today to be precise from yesterday , with the 2 month period coming to an end .