..and so so so its been 5 days in chennai with Hd and we are having our big fight already .

The day started with me trying to clean the kitchen with the words of my akka ringing that i have become an cleanliness freak and 'people who are obsessed with cleaning cannot actually cook' which i have to accept because i have seen this kind of people already . I mean both the types , mom who can cook great guns but looses interest when it comes to cleaning , which can be attributed to the small space in kitchen . And well..i need not compare the rest .

So the cleaning thing has actually took hold of me strongly and there i am with a cloth in my hand and either i sweep the kitchen or wipe the gas !! god i really need to stop this !!!

..akka gave me really good tips on cooking ..i mean really good ones and has given me 'పోపుల డబ్బా' as gift . Funny but true and it seems she is going to monitor how much i actually clean and cook in the kitchen from there on !! and that it should be a gentle reminder of 'cooking Vs cleaning' balancing act. Frankly speaking , life as a house wife is nothing but cleaning , wiping , cooking and sleeping ( the most imp ) . The detached Gemini that i am , need some hook to connect easily and which i am unable to find. The point is I am badly hurt , hurt from the different situations in the past and from life in general . I felt that i could find some comfort in relating to Hd about the big incident few weeks back and was shocked when he reacted cooly by saying that he knew what passed between the families and had no comment what so ever. To speak frankly i never expected this , I thought i could find some solace in his words or may be his reaction and have been constructing his reactions in various ways , but today's will remain with me for some time .He was cool as if it has been some thing that was natural .

Let me tell you one thing dear , the amount of hurt any one gives to my family will bounce back a 1000 times and with a vengeance . That's for sure and you will remember this day for ever .

..marriage is nothing but ...a beautiful view ' from afar about the hills the forest around it the sunset , the sunrise ..forgetting all about the trekking you need to reach there ..and more ever it is like that bright dress which looses its color once washed and tested.