..so here i am settled into the routine of the house-wife doing seva to my 'purusan' as is my dharma and showing my pathibhakthi to the god ( my man)..Frankly speaking i really don't know what i do the total of 24 hrs excepting planning to write so many things and updating only half of them...and some times in the afternoons after the daily cooking and cleaning part is over i some times wonder what am i doing to myself sitting almost idly and wandering in the different blogs that people write and keep loosing myself most of the times .Yes , I can go and mix with people but language has become a major barrier for me and i hardly can communicate with the maid or any one here . The only neighbour who speaks with me is the old lady who stays diagonally opposite to me and has helped me with the finding the present maid .She is a bit cross with me these days since i think i paid for the emergency maid a bit more than the usual .The old lady can hardly listen and does not find a big company in me ..so there i am almost alone on the floor with the laptop and the blogs......so much free time with almost nothing to do drags me to the bed so many times that by the time it is evening i am fresh , with kajal ( madhu to blame ) she got me hooked to it , with neat partition in the middle of my head and a oiled hair ..only the malepuvvu is missing ( chennai style ) attracting people to the new face ;) ..
Hd and i have started to walk in the mornings and it is a good experience at least to wake up a bit early and do some things like finishing break fast by 9 o clock etc., if i i am in a mood to do some thing . But the maid problem is really killing me ..she comes at 10 and gives back the most arrogant answers ..!! reminding me that she has a family and that is her first importance ..Yes she has agreed but then why agree to work in the morning hours ..we initially agreed that she finishes by 8 all the work.Well that how is the issue is!
..but like i read some where earning and being financially independent is so important in life ..what if the same thing continues ..what if ..??!! i would have to depend on the graciousness of the Hd ..he being a good man will give me but how much ..the kind of life style i am used to ..i didn't even think abt the little luxuries at all till now !! So what in the future? These are questions which probably only time will answer but still where i am a heading to ..??
..and as always ( i find some one to comapre myself to ) there is S in the company who is not getting tired of changing her different snaps in Gtalk and keeps updating her goals of doing MBA and stuff . In the three years i have known her , she has bagged 2 promotions , changed countries twice , has done 4 projects and is now planning to do an International MBA .Good work S ! cant help saying that since we were on the same boat once , and look at me now , one promotion , on the verge of lay off and on LOP for the next 2 months . ..and i dont have any new pics to add to gtalk as well except the marriage pics which i cling on to for uplifting my mood and making the imporession that all is going well on the outside layer.
..Recession has some good effects too , i could find time to spend time with Hd in leisure and take care of his health a little bit ..poor guy is quite lonely and the sad part is while my people call me atleast 4 times a day finding out what i have cooked and cleaned !! for the day , there is hardly any message from that side .All this could be just my 'Ayyo paapam' angle as well.
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