..It is possible that two people can sit in a room and not talk any thing with each other for more than two hours ! Yes it is , we can do it !!

Was having dinner with hubby yesterday and suddenly hd blurted that 'If i was unmarried , then the guys here would give me dowry ( telugu lo eduru-katnam) and marry me " . Even though the days of my platform i worked on are over , it felt so sweet to be told like that , that I was still worth a million dollars worth !! Gosh , it felt nice even though just a passing conversation .

..sometimes i just sit in the hall and i imagine as if i am having a conversation with nanna like for example , I made tamarind rice to day and did not know what else to make with that , i mean Curry . And i made sorakayi koora with it , and if dad had been there then may be he would say like ' evaraina pandaga roju , pulihara tho sorakaya koora chestara, 'adi ratre chestaru' '

..dabba pe dabba!! ( that was his way of bearing my foolish ness )

and some times when i am just lazying around in the home he might have said ' evamma emi pani leda , baga tini padukuntunnava' lechi running cheyi '.come on get up!!

..you get the flow ? It is that kind of conversation where i can imagine what he would say for any thing !! So that is what runs in the second track these days !

I some times think that may be his restlessness for every thing like what i did , what did not happen correctly was what he felt was enough for life time , I mean if he would have been alive then he would have been more distressed about mahesh's unsettlement or my joblessness or anything to that point!! he was very rarely at peace with everything you see ! some thing had to cook inside him always , but all that kind of changed at the end and he quite liked Hd and was talking with him continuously with him through out the journey . He does that rarely with any one and of course that was the last long conversation he had with any one . I miss his liveliness when i go home and when i am not at home , as he had this habit of calling every one hour , just to find out what i was doing and scolding me if i slept at day time !! Suddenly it is as if I am living alone , though i can get home sick if i don't talk with Amma for 2 days but still it is as if there is no one at home .

Thats for today!