..so life has changed considerably and new situations have cropped which i never thought would crop up in the near future and lo! i am thinking seriously about them and well even blogging about them .
..i don't want to acknowledge it but mom is not quite herself yet and it is difficult to leave her in the situation right now ! so immediately ..i think i will always feel as if the incident of nanna has happened just yesterday and i always get this feeling that he is still there some where .Sometimes a sudden ring from some where and i think nanna is calling ..and so i can imagine mom's situation she might be getting such feeling more number of times . ..
But still life has to move on and she has to come out of her depression , face the world and get along with her daily things , though she is a bit better now it might take a lot for the normalcy to come back if at all it will come back .
Today i just took a promise from her that she would come visiting to me at least three days a month and i would come here another three days ..and suddenly i thought that both of us would cry .I controlled mine but she lost hers . Death of a person is such that there is no use for people to avoid talking about it anyways . For Eg., many relatives come to our home and try to avoid talking about nanna.It feels so bad since we want to talk about him more and more and laugh. I feel laughter is the best therapy to some out of such situations .
Me and mom were eating parathas and suddenly the current went out . So mom put a candle on the show -case and the light was falling on the dad's picture . And we both said how he would have enjoyed such a good meal . I mean we were relieved by such talk and felt easy after that .Its like that we want to talk about such small and good things about dad and feel happy . And this is what bothers me if I go to chennai , such situations or occasions will not come up and mom might get lonely and become more depressed . I know , i know there are mobiles and phones to connect but still i wonder if we can feel at home with that .
As far as i know Hd will not get any job in Hyderabad . I know that for sure . at least in the current period and his line of work is such that there is now way we can come to Hyderabad anyway .Oh bloody hell. Real bloody hell .
All i asked life was not its riches nor its joys but a period of peaceful bliss and all i get is crap , crap and more crap.
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