..and then this week end passed.The week end with doubts,fears and all kinds of dramatized thoughts.The meds. They are driving me crazy and the thing is no one understands the real pain of the fear in taking them.The kind of cramps I experienced last week were enough to scare the hell out of me.Fear which haunts me these days ,day and night.And to think that life has not even started with kids makes me wonder ..Am i fit for the process? God why do you make me go through everything under the sun.A laaate marriage, experience with the whole world in getting done so, Early demise of father ..a mom who faces the brunt of this bloooody world.I hate u.